Let's Play Pretend [Niall Horan AU]

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Rough hands travelled up my shirt, gripped my hips tightly as I was being held up against the wall. My lithe legs around him. His chest taut and pressing hard between my legs. Tongues danced passionately as both our mouths were connected in a steamy kiss. My hand messing up his perfectly styled hair as I pulled him closer to deepen the kiss. Shamelessly grinding on each other and letting out licentious moans of desperation and want for each other. Hands couldn't be taken off of each other as we explored each other's burning bodies-

A soft hum of my phone disturbed the raunchy dream I was stuck in. I sat up, definitely not expecting such a steamy dream this early in the morning. My heart raced in wanton need. I haven't had such a dream since years ago. I didn't even know who the person was, the images were slowly fading away as I become more and more aware of my surrounding. I took a second to relax myself before grabbing my phone from my nightstand.

Overnight my name was suddenly trending on twitter,

#staystrongalexa
#weloveyoualexa

They were the top two trends for the day and I was beyond thankful that people were understanding and considerate of my situation. I just tweeted a simple red heart in gratitude.

I did have a shoot today so I got ready and went to the shooting studio. Surprisingly enough, I felt much better than I had expected to feel. When I think of the award show my mind drifts off to whatever happened with Niall and only then do I remember the whole situation. I guess he's a good distraction.

When I was on my way home after the shoot I got a call from Andrew.

"Yes?" I said, unlocking my door and entering my home.

"What happened last night? Why the hell are you and Niall so lovey dovey?" He asked in sheer confusion.

"No reason. Just something quite Umm traumatic happened and Niall helped me. No, it doesn't mean we're going to date. We're just a little more than acquaintances if you want to know. Can I end this call now?" I said uninterestedly.

"Yeah Umm just remember you have to break up in like four five months," he reminded me again.

"I'm aware Andrew. You shove it down my throat every other day," I said. "Also I'm going live and explaining everything that happened," I added.

"That would be good. People who've been through the same thing would relate with you and give you some boost," he said, forever only thinking about the money he can milk off of me.

"That's not why I'm doing this Andrew. I want people to get some awareness on this and you're a dickhead for thinking I'd do this for fucking popularity. Goodbye," I huffed angrily and ended the call.

I didn't have a single thing to do that day and I thought since everyone is more confused than angry about the prior day's situation I might as well go on a live and explain everything properly. I got myself some food to eat while I did so because I haven't had proper food since morning. It's bad, I know but bad habits are hard to break.

"Hi kiddos. Hi hi hi," I waved. The comments were mostly sympathising with me.

"I Uh thought since all of you are confused, I might just explain some stuff. Just a forewarning, if any of this is triggering to you and/or scarring you are free to leave the live and I hope you're doing well," I said, taking a heaping spoonful of some soup.

"Yes, I'm having soup and no, I'm not a 80 year old grandma for doing so," I addressed a comment with a chuckle.

"So if you have any doubts about my post from yesterday I'd be happy to answer them," I smiled sweetly.