Trust me (Niall Horan Fan Fiction)

Getting it off her mind

April 1, 2013

Hey! Whats up people? I'm really excited! Ekkkk! I'm gonna read a poem out loud to people! Well I might... The person hasn't contacted me back yet... Anyways It's april fools!

My mum was so mean and said that One Direction was going to have another concert close to us. I have a busy summer shecdule so I was happy, but when I looked it up it wasn't there...

It was april fools...

Boy was I sad and angry... But my mum said she was sorrry sooooooo all is well....

Hope you enjoy!

-xXWhiteSoulXx-

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-Raylins POV-

Today I woke up crying. My body covered in cold sweat. My hair plastered to my head and face. All those unwanted memories just came back and so did he. I remember what he did. What we used to be. It was just a dream. Just a dream. He was the one thing I've never told Niall about. I never really wanted to tell him though.

It would scare him, I think. I didn't want him to fell pity on me. My family did that enough. I didn't want to shed more tears. I just wanted to move on, but whatever I went his memory came with me. It was like he followed me.

I didn't know if I could tell anyone. I din't want their pity, like I said before. i just wanted to forget about him. I really did. I wanted to make myself believe it was all just a dream. I want it to be a dream.

But it wasn't. It was all real. I remember my mom talking to me about it.

-Flashback-

"Ray?" My mother asked me. I was too in shock to speak to her. She wanted me? Me? ME? ME?! to talk to him after this whole thing happened?

Had he already done enough to me? Why would I speak to him? He was insignificant to me.

"Why mum?" I asked.

"What do you mean honey?" My mom asked looking at me.

"You know! Why do you want me to talk to him? Why would I forgive him?!" I yelled.

"Honey, you need to talk to him. He's sorry. You can forgive but you don't have to forget." My mum said. She was calm and that irritated me.

"No." I said.

"What?" my mum asked astonished.

"I said No!" I said.

"Ray-"

"I'm never going to forgive him mum! He ruined my life?! DID YOU KNOW I ALMOST TOOK MY LIFE BECAUSE OF HIM?! No you wouldn't know...." I said. I fell to my knees defeated and my mum stood there in shock.

"Ray-"

"I'm fine. I'm going to my room." I said. I heard my mum soft sobbing and I felt bad, but it was the truth. I almost did take my life because of him....

-End Flashback-

I hoped I would never go thought that, but yesterday. It reminded me of him. It was a horrible thing. I was a wreck and a mess. After High school I never did see him. I didn't want to. I never regretted not forgiving him.

I got out of the desk chair and went to the window.I looked out the window at the street. Cars rushed by to go to where ever they needed to go. People walked by with friends and they laughed. They were happy and cheerful. Those two things I wished I could have in this moment of time.