I am sorry.
I am sorry that I saw you differently because you shut me out years ago, and I'm sorry I shut you out recently because I couldn't deal with you. I was selfish and I loved it. I'm sorry I couldn't be the person you saw me as. I know I disappointed you white. I know. I'm sorry and I told you but I wish you know how genuine it is, but I also know you want nothing to do with me. I wish you could see how much I've changed; how much more of a human I am now. I learned my lessons. Almost all of them. I wish you were still here. You made everything feel normal.
