Big Dreams

Chapter 13: Road Trip

When I got back to Portugal, I felt really happy because I could be with my friends and family again. My father and Beni asked for my help to decorate the baby's room so we had something to do in family and to entertain us for the summer because the baby was supposed to be born in October. But the joy that filled me in when I got there, quickly disappeared. I missed them and I didn't have to miss them anymore because I was there but I missed Canada, the life, the people, the mentality, all of it. I felt as now that I knew what it was like to be there, I didn't have anything to fear anymore and I didn't want to stay in Portugal, I was sure of it at that moment.

- "Hey babe, are you okay? You looked like you're not here", Miguel asked me one day.

- "Yes, everything is fine...", I was not sure that I should tell him right away but I decided that he had the right to know how I felt, "Actually, I need to talk to you about Canada. Since I got back I feel that this place is the strange one, it doesn't feel like home anymore. Not that I felt like Canada was home because something was missing, you were missing. I want you to be with me, always, but I want to be with you in a place that I like, that we both do and I think you're gonna love Canada as much as I do. I know we still have college and that you already knew I wanted to leave Portugal but I just want you to know that this feeling and this idea is getting bigger every day that goes by, special after I've seen how great that is."

- "Sara, that's exactly what I was expecting. And I want to be with you and I want to leave the country so I think we are both on the same page. The only thing that makes me wanna stay is my sister, I can't abandon her, she is not good right now so I can't picture my future at this moment but there are still two years before we really have to think about it at least. What I'm trying to say is that I would like that but I cannot agree to go or make plans right now."

- "Yes sure, I understand . " I said and he kissed me. I felt slightly bad because, although I understood what he had said, I didn't want to make plans for the future. It was nothing that I had to think about because I was sure that was what I wanted and that he didn't seem to be on the same page to me but I didn't say anything more.

I decided to enjoy the summer that, after all, would be great, and forget about that subject for a while. And that year summer included a road trip and a music festival! I was really excited and so was everyone else. It was already July and everyone had already done all of their exams, so all we did was plan the road trip. The boys had planned a lot of things, but I needed things to be a little more organized than that so we discussed the final details and then showed the entire plan to the boys.

It was already the 1st of August and Miguel went to pick me up after Mateo.

- "Good morning, beautiful." Miguel said kissing me and helping me with the giant backpack that Marta had lent me for the trip. " Please don't make too much noise, Mateo is asleep because he had a big fight with his parents over the night" We both enter the van.

- "I hope things get better for him," I said looking at him laying in the three seats behind us.

- "Yeah, me too. What about you? Did you sleep well?"

- "I tried but I was so excited that I couldn't" we smiled at each other.

- "First I thought I would give you a big present, something that you'd deserve but then I remembered you once told me you didn't want us to give presents to each other that you would prefer to save money so we could travel and have different experiences, so I thought this trip would be perfect".

- "Oh, you were absolutely right, I prefer to have adventures and trips than to have presents."

We talked a lot while we got the others since he was driving and I was next to him. When we finally picked up Gulli and Dan, Mateo had to wake up and everyone was very worried about him but a "Don't worry guys, Sara put some music we need to get in the spirit of a real road trip" let everyone more relaxed. We sang almost all the way to Algarve except when we changed seats so some of us could sleep while others would drive.