Bad habits

Marriage or not

Not shortly after Christmas began it ended. Not in the greatest way I could ask for. Briney is at my mothers parents with the rest of the family as me my mother and my stepfather all huddle round his family hearing sobs and sniffles and people blowing their noise. I was right about grandmother not seeing another Christmas but she didn't even get to see all of this Christmas.
I haven't cried yet. Im angry. Im angry at the world for making it today of all days. Im angry at hearing people cry. Im angry at the fact it was one of her grandchildren a first Christmas and over all that im angry at the fact that she wasn't my own grandmother but over all of that she was the only on out of my step family who tried with me and made an effort. She accepted me and treated me like her own. Not even my stepfather does that very often.

My phone buzzes and I look down to see a incoming call from Finn. I walk outside and answer it.
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Hello.

Hey, sorry I didnt text you all day and I know it like nine pm and you are probably having a great time with your family but I left my phone at my house and was at my aunties all morning, im glad you got home safe.

It's okay it's okay, have a good Christmas?

What's wrong? You sound like you are going to or have been crying.

Im at the hospital

What? What?

My grandmother dies today. Four o'clock. We got the phone call as we were eating dinner.

Oh, im so sorry.

It's okay Finn, I have to go now I'll text you bye

Bye.
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I didn't have to go I just couldn't keep talking to him on the phone I would have cried and I've cried to him enough for now. I go inside and my mother says me and her should leave and let Timothy stay with his family. That hurts a little and I finally realise im no longer part of that family. Marriage or not. I now wish I stayed on the phone to Finn. His voice makes me happy. I'll have to tell him that one day.