Bad habits

"Just an old friend, don't really wanna talk to him anymore"

For the first time ever I'm happy to hear an alarm. I get up, shower, don't eat and decide to dress in one of my new tops and jeans, I throw on a hoodie and vans. All my outfit is black. Wow.

I decide to wear bands to cover my arms just incase i decide to take my hoodie off when we are out. After putting on a tiny bit of make up and slipping on my glasses. I give myself a little smile and whisper 'okay' to myself. I am reminding myself 1) to behave and 2) it will be okay. I give my mum a little kiss and tell her I will be home later and wish her a good time at the gig she is going to and leave the house.

I arrive at the place we have decided to meet before the girls do. I have my headphones and a various selection of music on my blackberry so it's okay that they are late, or I'm early. Yeah I'm early. Luckily enough Cassie gets to me earlier than we planned too. So we chatted about the up coming show and she assured me that I will do fine and not to worry, I praise her singing and we wait for Esme.

As me and Cassie see Esme up-roaching us we walk towards her as we decided we wanted to go that way and do a little shopping before heading back to mine or at least in my area. Whilst walking around shops, buying, looking, changing our minds. We decide to go and get a coffee from Starbucks. I know. It's bad. I prefer costa but I don't mind I can deal with Starbucks. Whilst the girls get a ice frappe and a tea. I go with a mocha. As always.

Once we had finished messing around in the shopping centre we went to the bus stop to wait to go back to mine. When on the bus I told them that we could hang around near where I live.

*****Thats what you get when you let your heart win****

my phone rings from in my bag. I rummage through my bag looking for it. Once I find it the call has ended. I look at the missed call and in bold letters I see 'ELIJAH'. Damn, I've been meaning to delete that pricks number. I shake my head and mentally remind myself not to call him back and to delete his number and all the messaged between us when I have time.

When I look back up to the girls they look at me confused. Esme raises an eyebrow followed by

'care to explain?'

I find the most simplest answer ever.

'Just an old friend, don't really wanna talk to him anymore'

They just smile. Oh dear. Paranoid Annie is coming back.

Chill Annie.

I just stand up and tell them we have to get off. We spent the next few hours in the parks near mine and walking around. It's not like my area is bad but it's not great. It's little and kinda quite. We all know each over. It's more of a large estate. Well larger than normal estates. Small houses. Its really not great but we wouldn't be in danger.

After walking through the whole estate and taking a lot of selfies and silly pictures we head to the top park. From here you can see my school. This reminds me in a few weeks I'm going back there. I am not ready. No where near. I still have so much I need to do. The usual getting school clothes and stuff. Furthermore, I'm not mentally ready.

'Annie, Esme.. Let's get to know each over a bit more'

'Yeah that sounds great'

'You guys can start' I nervously answer and secretly try and escape.

After Cassie has finished I know her full name is Cassie Daisy Milton. She was born with a weak kidney. She wears contacts, her favourite colour is orange and she loves skittles.

When Esme's turn is up I now know that her parents are divorced, she use to live in Ireland, she's always wanted to go to a mosh pit, she hates sugar in her tea and she hates love films. Oh and her last name is Coles. Everyone has better names than me.

Just as I am about to talk and expose my shit to two girls I can just about call my friends, My mum rang and asked me to go home because it would be getting dark soon.

Getting into my house I send them straight into my bedroom away from the family. Well actually just my stepdad sitting I'm the front room, Briney is playing out.I can't wait until I live alone. I send out a little 'I'm home' as I walk to the kitchen and obviously I don't get a reply. I remember I have a bottle of bells in the fridge. Yes drinking underage is bad but no I don't care.

The night was going so fast. We was jumping around, singing and dancing all night. We put weird things on our heads and took random pictures again. I can feel the most amazing friendship blossoming with these girls.

When the girls asked again I finally told the girls about myself.

'My name is Angelica Dakota Prescott, but seriously only call me Annie. It's not funny. I was going to say I'm not very different from everyone else but I'm not normal either. No where near, if you wanna know about me it would take a while to explain but let's leave it at. I'm a little odd compared to you guys. Also, I love the colour green'

I continue to talk about my ex boyfriend. I would rather tell them about this than my stupid mental illnesses. I don't cry. I just tell it like a story. Like it's someone else's story and I'm reading it from a book. I tell it with no emotion but the way they are staring at me as I speak tells me my eyes are saying different. They listen and comfort me. Then we went back to having fun and once again taking pictures and writing on my wall.

Later on, Esme gets a phone call from her friend Finn. He is very upset and angry about his ex. Esme asks if she can tell him about my ex and what has happened between me and him. I give her permission and after she does so. He asked to talk to me. The phone is handed to me and I walk outside into my garden to talk to a boy I don't know, called Finn.