Bad habits

'either crying or making shadow puppets. or both.'

Annies PoV

Esme is doing my hair while we talk about the latest gossip and eat ice cream. this is when i get to hear about all the bitching that happeneng at her school. Its nice to hear about other dramas rather than hear others talking about your dramas for once. 

All the girls at that school just sound like bitches. Ive spoken to a few. I spoke to Esmes friend the other day. I wasnt really paying attention to her name she was talking about anotehr girl and someone said something to someone. I dont know. I know finn was involved or his name was mentioned or something. It was really confusing and she spoke really fast. She seemed nice though. Esme said one day i can meet all of her friends. If they are all as nice as herself, Finn and Cassie then i'm in for a treat. 

She always does my hair. Its like a thing. We always do it. Then we end up having a long indepth chat after which ends with cuddles and either crying or making shadow puppets. Or both. She's a lot taller than me. I am like a small child to her. So we are the best cuddle buddies also because i'm always freezing she keeps me nice and toasty and her double bed is just the most relaxing place ever. I enjoy being here at Esme's. Its becoming to be my second home. Well i feel comfortable when there isn't tension from family issues but if anyone, i am the one to undertsnd family issues. So even when i feel alittle out of my comort zone i make sure she is feeling okay before i decide what to do with myself. 

She is so strong and i look up to her very much. She is my bestfeiend and my rock and i can only hope our friendship grows and maybe lasts longer than 6 months. No one really stays in my life longer than that. Unless you have to have me like my parents and even one of them has fucked off. Great isnt it? 

Well molly is still here so lets hope esme can stick around and put up with the bombshell that is me for a while.

 I wake up the next morning with 3 friend request from girls at esmes school. She told some of them to add me on the little social network we all have that comes with our phones. I accept them they seem like cool people. Sarah, Cory and Lauren. i think lauren is the girl i spoke to the other day.

Cory is really pretty, she is Finns ex i believe. I dont want to dislike her but this burning jealousy over somsone who isnt even mine is starting to take over.

I'll never be anything compared to the poeople he has dated, and what do i have? A phyco ex boyfriend. Yeah much threat. I wouldnt give him a second chance ever. Not in a romantic way. Sure if he cleans up his act maybe we can be friend some day. 

But oh gosh alll of finns ex's are so pretty and they sound like lovely girls. Tall, skinny. Then there is me.

Plain and boring. I'm the last cookie in the cookie jar, I end up being thrown away because im too old and i might taste funny or i get crushed by the new biscuits.

Okay so thats a weird annalogy but you understand what i'm trying to say? 

I spend all day talking to Emse about christmas and we decide we are going to go shoppping the next weekend so we have enough time to wrap everything up and give it to the poeple we need to. We break up from school the wednesday after and christmas is shortly after that. 

I dont hate christmas, i just gone get excited about it as much as i use to. I'ts all different now, im growing up.. I'ts more about trying to stay awake and not kill your whole family more than joy and happiness. 

I make my list. Arrange when i will be seeing Esme next and jump on the next bus home before it gets too dark.