the rumor || 2kim

lonely and ugly

"Do you still think the same after seeing my face being like this...."

~ Kim Minjoo

[CHAEWON POV]

What is she saying...

The first time, I see her being this broken. When I was watching her in school, she always had a neutral mood and never complained about anything.

She is looking away with the energy of being ashamed.

"Minjoo, look at me now." I told her

"I.. can't."

"Why? Just look at me! You got harmed and the only thing you care about is what I think about your face. Please look at me and tell me what happened..." I said

She finally took a look at me and says "fine. My mother punched me several times just because I told her how I feel. My opinion, my mental pain... I told her everything. I wanted her to be honest to us and then she got aggressive. Why is everything I do wrong. As the people in my class said. I'm already hated by the destiny and now I'm ugly. I'm lonely and now with this face, I'm lonely forever. I never had friends. I never had someone who cares about me. Not even my brother who also mentally suffers from my mother. He just watched my mother harming me without doing anything. Not even he cares about me. Nobody... the only thing I have existed for are my online friends but not even they can be here for me. Only virtually. I wish I'd be a computer program... maybe then I'd like to exist..."

Her words are so heart breaking... and the dumb me thought how beautiful it must be to be like her. She has seen how people enjoy their lives with their family and/or friends... how everyone is socially active. How everyone has something she never had.

The love of family and friends. She never has had these. I had this even it was fake and painful at the end. At least I was able to have this. Something she never has been able to. She must feel like she is in a lonely room and looks out of the small window how people live their lives while she can't escape.

How could I think her life is beautiful...

But... every room has a key. Every room has a door. There is always a way to escape. The word escape doesn't exist for nothing.

But what is the key?

If a key gets lost then there is always a way to create a new key.

Now everything starts to become different.

Imagine the scandalous Chaewon never has existed. I go to school without any problems. I enjoy the time with my friends and smile. I only focus on family, friends and school. And if it was like this, I wouldn't have noticed Minjoos existence.

She isn't hated by destiny. If destiny really exists, then the destiny gave both of us a challenge. This challenge brought us together. But what is the reason? It must have something to do with the key. The room in our soul is the last room. And did I escape?

I understand it now.

I was in that room too. My challenge is having a happy life and then feeling the pain of losing everything. The first rooms were my happy memories. Then I got into the last room. The painful one. Minjoo always has been in that painful room.

But I have the feeling I'm not in this room anymore. Something feels different now.

WAIT!!

Few days ago, I still felt like being in this room. So if destiny really exists, I already found my key.

But what is my key....

My eyes can only focus on...

...Kim Minjoo...

She is it. She was my key. She gave me emotions. She made my emotions escape from the room of pain. Also I feel so comfortable with her.

Destiny, did you really make go through this shit to meet her? But why? Only because she's my key? There must be more...

Yes. It must be this. I found her key.

I am her key.

"Kim Minjoo. Do you really think no one cares about you?" I said and she just gave me a nod.

"Well then. Tell me what the person in front of you is doing. Who is in front of you and what is this person doing to you right now?" I asked her

"The person in front of me is you, Kim Chaewon. And... you're..." she said and stopped

"You know it, right? The person in front of you is taking care of you. You're not hated by destiny. All what happened is not because destiny hates you. Destiny made me find you." I told her.

She's looking at me with tears in her eyes

"Minjoo, you're not alone. I'm here to take care of you. Let me be the one who makes you escape of this loneliness. And please be the one who gives my emotions back. Okay?" I said

She starts crying and hugs me tightly. I hugged her back.

I want to cry with her too...

"And Minjoo, to your question. Yes, you're still an angel for me. You're still the prettiest one." I said

"Thank you..."

[TO BE CONTINUED]