Rit It Up:Fame and Pain.

Nightmares about future.

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fear, creeping towards
us, it's venom deadly,
such a relentless foe.
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1 week after first repetition
Hotel
Mike's POV:
Sometimes I was jealous that Pete's wife was always with him.
But I knew my dear wife Mary loves me in her own way.
In tours I usually was with my greatest passion: videocamera.
Also known as: only try to get inside my room with that and you'll dead.
And guess what I'm doing at this glorious morning?
Yes I'm going to Pete's bedroom with my dear videocamera.
I was sure Pete was still asleep.
He became very lazy when he lived in Japan.
As I approached the bedroom I heard a mumbling:
"For god sake why expressing my inner feelings over someone are so hard?"
"How do these Japanese describe love?"
I saw Pete sitting on the bed looking at paper, while chewing pen.
I filmed it and asked:
Pete are you writing poems?
For Lynne?

Pete started and looked at me:

First he didn't even understood what happens. He just blankly looking at me a few seconds.
Then his eyes widened as he noticed that I filmed what's happening.
Have you been filming me all this time? Pete asked me in a shaky voice.
I was ready for anything but not what I saw.
I saw fear in Pete's eyes.
Pete almost was in panic. He breathed heavily and stuttered:
Delete it. Now.
Don't tell anybody that I'm writing poems.
I stood silently with confusion.
I didn't understand what's going on and why Pete so afraid of that little harmless.
There is nothing special about it or?
I answered: Well okay I'll not tell anybody.
I noticed sudden changes in Pete.
He wasn't in fear anymore. Pete's eyes showed me a very familiar feeling.

Anger.

Pete got up from bed and said:
But for now...

He looked like a beast about to attack.
I ducked down just in case.
Pete lowered his head and sighed.
And then...
"get the fuck out of here!"
I left the bedroom without any words.
I decided to avoid him some days because all situation was very confusing for me.
I just don't understand what I did wrong.
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Steve POV:
I woke in cold sweat again.
Having the same nightmare for 4 days.
Everyone found out my true feelings.
And everybody laughing.
And Pete telling me that nobody cares about me and I'm feeling or thinking.
And they all leave me.
I decided to go for a walk.
I walked without knowing where I was going.
Something bumped into me.
Familiar voice started talking to me.
I looked down and saw Pete face.

He was too busy in thoughts to notice that it was me.

You seem very busy hobbit.

Pete eyes widened and he looked up to my face.
He softly chuckled:
Ah that's you Stig!
Wait... you called me little again!

I laughed a little. Pete unexpectedly smiled a little.

Sorry I need to go, I need check everything in our future performance place.
See ya!
He left and I kept going to park.

Pete POV:
Today I almost got my nightmare become real.
What's nightmare for me?
That everybody found out I love someone else but I'm scared this person will reject me and will made fun of me.

I looked around and noticed a sakura blossom:
Oh god it's so beautiful... just like Steve smile.

Mike's POV:
I bring my second camera.
My personal one where I get my family and private things.
I came to Tim to check what he is doing.
He was writing the lyrics for the song he wrote before.

You're always so caring I said to Tim.
"Because we're a family, aren't we?
I'm so happy to work with all of you!"
Tim smiled brightly.

You don't mind I'm filming you I asked Tim.

No, I know how this camera important to you, I'm sure your dream will come true and you'll be a great operator.

You're so beautiful I said to him.

He look at me being surprised.
I noticed how shy he became.
Well you're beautiful too.
He smirked happily.

Why I'm feeling so weird?