Little did he Know || Tronnor

Chapter 17

Troye

My eyes were wide while looking at the beautiful boy I knew as Connor Franta.
His hair was perfectly quiffed and all in one direction. His eyes were bright and a lovely shade of green from the sun shining on them and his face wore a smile that looked like it would take an earthquake to fade.

We were sitting on the beach on the sand, while overlooking the oceans rolling waves.

"Do you believe in forever?" Connor asked, knocking me out of my trance.

"Wha-what?" I responded stuttering from surprise.

"Forever. Do you believe in forever?" Connor asked once again, but this time more loudly and clearly.

There was something in his eyes. They were open wide. It was almost as if they were filled with a little spark of.....curiosity?

"Um, why do you ask?" I inquired, trying to avoid his sudden thoughts.

"I want to know if there is a forever." He responded, looking down, while raking his long fingers through the sun soaked sand, picking up some with his fingertips, then dropping it back down.

"Well it guess it depends on what you're wondering is forever." I said, taking my hand and putting it under his chin to make his eyes connect with mine.

"What is love?" I then asked him, trying to still avoid his question.

I thought he would do the same thing I did and blow it off, or just change the subject back to his question, but no, he didn't do that. Instead he responded with an answer I don't even think he even was expecting.

"Us......me......you" he said without having to think about it. His voice got lower and lower as he came closer to me.

Eyes flickered down at my lips as he moved in. His eyes fluttered shut along with mine. I felt his breath on my lips, and just wanted to pull him forcefully to me and to connect our lips. His breath still lingered on my lips as he stayed in the same place. What was he waiting for?

My eyes fluttered open and I blinked a few times trying to get used to the bright colored sky. Connor's eyes were now open too. His lips were still slightly parted and his breaths were coming short and quick.

I pulled away and look down at the faded sand underneath my body that was in a criss cross position.

I felt a wave of fatigue come over myself. It was because of something I did wrong. It had to be. I always screw up the almost perfect moments. Why?

I was craving for one of Connor's slow, yet powerful kisses that I hadn't had in so long. The last time we had kissed properly was probably a week before my mistake, and that felt like an eternity.

No words were exchanged between the two of us as we watched the sun start to set over the crashing waves of the ocean.

"It's not you." Connor then said after the sun had almost disappeared behind the horizon.

"What, what do you mean it's not me?" I asked in a very worried manner.

"It's not your fault that I didn't kiss you." Connor said getting to his feet and wiping off all the sand that had gathered on his lap.

"Then what was it?" I asked, still sitting on the ground of the now cooling sand while looking up and into his green eyes.

"Me"

"What about you?" I asked scrunching my eyebrows together and slowly getting to my feet.

"Well.....I'm not perfectly innocent either." He said while looking down at his feet and fiddling with his fingers.

"Connor? Wha-what do you m-mean?" I stuttered.

This can't be happening. Connor and I are perfect. He's perfect. We're all perfect.

"Um....I'm not the only one who made a mistake." He said, his voice cracking.

I didn't speak, but looked into his eyes searching for an answer.

"You're not the only one I've kissed while we were dating." He answered my question in an almost whisper.

"No....no,no,no,no,NO!" I yelled while covering my face with my hands.

I turned on my heal and ran. Despite my difficult time running through the sand, I went fast. This hurt.....it really hurt. I know I hurt him, but that was after he hurt me and I didn't know about it.

I soon felt the familiar burn in my lungs. It was almost like I wanted to run away from my problems, because it hurt....it hurt to run, and I liked that pain. It was a pain that felt sooo good.

Tears streamed down my face, blurring my vision. I still knew where I was though.

I ran on the sidewalk leaving loud 'clomps' behind me. I soon reached apartment 30 and whipped out my key.
I shoved it in the lock, missing a few times, but managed to open the apartment.

I threw myself inside and slammed the door behind me.

All I could hear was my heart pounding and my loud 'huffs' escaping my burning mouth.

I turned my back to put in on the back of the door and slid down so I was sitting.

I sat there in silence without my tears even stopping for a second. Then I did something I think would scare people.

I laughed. I laughed and laughed and laughed. I laughed so hard, that it was difficult to breathe.

I hurt Connor and Connor hurt me
How wonderful are we?
We hurt each other and feel pain
We both must be going insane
We cry at night out of sight
Hoping we just might make things right

Authors note: Hello! Sorry it's been so long. (It's only been 5 days) I have like written this over the course of 5 days, so yeah. I do want to thank all of you though, because every vote and comment puts a smile on my face, so thank you for that! And I hope you enjoy this chapter lovelies :)