Connor
I don't think I've ever felt as relieved in my life after hearing those words. Those two simple words. Those words meant so much to me. Much more than anyone else could comprehend. It was kind of hard for me to comprehend too. Those words reassured me. They made me feel everything was going to get better again. Those words.
"He's free."
Tyler and I had sat in suspense for much longer than I really cared to. I think we were both too caught up in our own thoughts and missing Troye that we hadn't really realized how long we had been there. Honestly I don't know how long I sat there until I had realized the sky had turned dark and the air outside had turned quiet. All we were doing was waiting. I knew somehow that we'd get Troye back. I just knew it.
Those words were so quick but they me at everything to me. They really did.
"He's free."
I jumped up from my seat. Wait what? He's free? All I wanted was to feel him. I just wanted to feel his warmth. I just wanted to know that he is fine. I haven't seen him in so long. It may not seem like it, but it was way too long.
"H-he's free?" I stuttered. Do I get to see him? Holy shit.
Tyler got to his feet as well, clearly feeling the same as I was. I was shocked. It wasn't like I didn't expect him to ever be free. I think I just didn't really realize that I'd get to see him again until now.
"Is he coming here?" Tyler asked from beside me, his voice rising.
"He's coming here. He's coming home. He's free you guys."
I covered my gaping mouth with my hand. I better not cry. I can't cry. I took in deep breaths trying to calm myself down. This was going to actually happen. I'd get to see him again. Doubt then washed over me. Oh no.
"T-Ty do you think....do you think that he will understand why I left?" Panic filled my voice as I turned to face Tyler.
"He loves you con. I know he'll understand. He's stupid to be honest if he doesn't." Tyler said moving towards me opening his arms, inviting me in for a quick hug.
"He's free." I whispered into his shoulder.
"I know." He replied.
I now sat tapping my foot as we anxiously waited for Troye to arrive. Ideas were running through my mind of what to say. I was clueless at this point. I just wanted to see him. Even if he hated me. I just wanted to hug him. That's all I wanted. If that was that last thing I'd ever do then so be it. I just wanted to feel him. Feel his warmth. It's kind of amazing how somebody could mean so much to you. You start out liking somebody and then soon enough you love them and you two are inseparable. It's amazing how that can happen.
"Con." I heard Tyler whisper beside me. I looked his way, but he didn't look back at me. He was looking off somewhere else. I decided to follow his gaze that lead to the door.
They're here aren't they.
The door handle rattled as the person on the outside unlocked it. Even if it was just a few seconds, it felt much longer than that. That door was separating me and my love, of course it was going to feel like it took forever to unlock the door.
"Holy shit."
The door finally opened revealing a tall muscular man. He took off his hat as he stepped inside. He didn't say a word, but just looked us sitting in the corner. We probably looked like we hadn't slept in days at this point. We were exhausted and I didn't really care at this point.
The officer then looked behind himself as he stepped away, revealing the person I wanted to see most. His eyes widened as they met mine.
"I-I...." I trailed off thinking of what to say.
I stood up, but didn't make a move toward Troye. I pulled my hand back up to my face. I'm not going to cry, we've already gone over this.
Troye didn't move toward me either. His fingers gripped onto his upper arms as he shifted on his feet. He opened his mouth, but no words came out. His eyes showed emotions, but none he was expressing through words.
"Jesus you guys, you're not strangers." Tyler spoke behind me. I had almost forgot he was even here. It seemed like Troye and I were the only ones here.
I made the first step, but soon enough he started walking towards me as well. I started speeding up as the tears rose in my eyes. Five more steps. Three more steps. Two more steps.
I ran at the end as I engulfed him into my arms. I held on so tight. So fucking tight. I wasn't going to let him go again. I need him. He's my other half. We need to stay whole.
"Oh my fuck Troye." I barely spit out in between my sobs.
I just pulled him in even tighter, burying my head into his neck. He was still Troye. He was still here.
"I love you." Troye whispered into my neck. "I fucking love you so much Connor." His voice cracked as his tears fell onto my skin.
I just squeezed my eyes shut even harder. I love him so much. God I can't even comprehend how much I love him.
I pulled my head away from his neck and brought my forehead to his, still keeping my eyes closed. I pulled my hands up to his neck.
"I'm never going to leave you Troye. I'm never going to leave you without any reason. I just can't. I need you." I whispered to his lips before opening my eyes. I was met with his already opened pair.
"You don't realize how much I need you." His eyes filled with tears as he kept eye contact with me. His eyes were filled with desperation, sadness, love and who knows what else.
I felt his breath bounce on my lips as we sat in silence. I don't care if we looked like idiots in the middle of the police station. I only cared that Troye was here and in my arms. Nothing else mattered. Not any other thing mattered as much as this did.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked me, catching me off guard. We've kissed so many times before, but it has been so long since then. I have been deprived of him himself for so long. I just needed him. He's the one who fills me with happiness, with joy, with every damn emotion, because that's just the person he is.
I didn't respond, but I instead leaned forward, telling him that yes, yes I did want him to kiss me.
Neither of us rushed things as we met in the middle. It was just love. Pure love. No lust, no need, just love. We were in public in front of a crowd, so of course we wouldn't go that route anyways. The kiss only lasted a mere minute, but it felt so relieving, so refreshing in that one minute. It felt like everything I ever needed.
It was then. That moment that reminded just how utterly I am in love with Troye. That moment that made me realize how much he really did mean to me.
A/n: hi. Oh yeah I know it's weird, but it amazes me just seeing how many people read an update just after uploading it 10 minutes ago. It's amazing.
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