*abuse warning*
"NO, PLEASE STOP!!" I yelled, but he continued to hit my fingers with the hammer, and scrape my thighs with his knife. I was helpless, my tears filled my eyes, and they fell to my lap stinging my wounds.
"DONT ACT LIKE YOU DON'T DESERVE IT, YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN KILLED LONG AGO WITH YOUR REAL PARENTS. WE SHOULD HAVE NEVER ADOPTED YOU! YOU'RE USELESS!" he yelled as he plunged the knife into my calf. I yelped. The smell of alcohol lingered from his breath.
no.. stop this.... it hurts.
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"(y/n)!"
"wake up!"
"it's just a dream!"
I jerked up with tears streaming down my face, what a relief it was just a dream. I wasn't actually back there. Mikasa's hands were on my shoulders with a concerned look in her eyes. "sorry, I'm fine" I said to her, giving a faint smile whilst wiping away my tears with my shirt.
"you seriously need help this happens every night," Mikasa says in an annoyed but worried tone.
"no, seriously I'm fine," I said looking around the room. There were 3 bunk beds to my left, and 1 to my right. The floor was a dark oak, as well as the walls and the door. All the bunk beds had white sheets on them, then everyone started heading to breakfast.
"I hate to ask but... what was it about?"
I grabbed the back of my neck with my right hand rubbing it gently "I was just falling off a cliff, strange huh." I lied straight to her face. Mikasa and I have been friends for 5 years yet... I can't bring myself to tell her the truth.
"yeah... well let's go get breakfast now!" She grabbed my hand and pulled me out of bed. We quickly got ready then headed to the cafeteria. We walked in and spotted Armin and Eren, his blue-green eyes looking into mine. "(y/n), Mikasa over here!" Armin said waving his hand in the air. I went and sat beside Armin and across from Eren. Mikasa then went to grab some food for all of us and sat back down beside Eren.
I looked at the scrambled eggs and toast, immediately feeling my throat tighten and my stomach churn. I just sat there zoned out staring at the food in front of me. "hey (y/n), why aren't you eating?" Armin says confused. "uh... I'm just not hungry is all" I said plastering a fake smile on my face. "Are you sure it's not because of your nightmare?" Mikasa says looking into my soul with her slender eyes.. well shit. "no! of course not! I'm just really not hungry!" I said fiddling my thumbs, I hated lying to my friends.
Eren looked up at me, "we have training today are you sure? you're going to need your energy." he said. My heart began to feel warm as it felt that he was concerned for me, but... he would never like me in that way. He only thought of me as a friend.
I stood up quickly slightly shaking the table. I felt like I was going to throw up. "sorry uh I have to go, but I'll see you guys at training!". I quickly turned running out of the cafeteria to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and began to dry heave above the toilet. I hadn't had breakfast in so long, but those memories that creep into my dreams every night make me sick.
I walked out of the stall looking into the mirror. My eyes were so dark underneath, I hadn't slept properly in months.
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