whatever it takes

Chapter 9: Supreme Leader

*Song: DNA by Kendrick Lamar*

t/w: smut 

When we got back from Naboo the fleet immediately began attacking the Resistance's ships I begged Kylo not to go but it was to no avail.

Now I was sitting on the couch in the living room looking out the windows watching the battle unfold. Kylo had left about 2 hours ago for a meeting with Snoke on the Supremacy. And it had been about 30 minutes since I watched his TIE Silencer speed out of the hanger and began shooting. I was horrified watching him shoot at the group his mother was apart of but I also understood. With the amount of trauma, he went through as a child it was no surprise he was the way he was. I could understand the feeling of parent abandonment, I was just lucky I had Tony to save me. 

I was watching every move the Silencer made. Kylo was shooting everything in sight. He hit the main cruiser, several x-wings, and other smaller ships. I had to admit he was an unbelievable pilot. You could tell he got it from his father. Kylo had told me about Han's piloting and watching Kylo flying through space pulled at my heartstrings. 

Even though we were miles apart I could feel the anger he was feeling. I continued sipping on my tea looking out when I noticed a shift in his force signature. It was almost like he was communicating with someone but I couldn't tell who. 

I looked at where his ship was and he looked like he was flying straight towards the main bridge of the resistance cruiser. Then it clicked. It was Leia. I couldn't take my eyes off the scene. Kylo was about to blow up the bridge which would clearly kill Leia and eject her into space. He had a clear shot. 

I stood there with anxiety watching everything unfold. The seconds felt like hours but then nothing happened. Kylo never took the shot. 

But as soon as I relaxed, I saw a different TIE fighter shoot at the ship. The bridge of the cruiser completely exploded. My hand flew to my mouth. I felt like I was going to be sick. I watched Kylo pull back and then my focus switched. I couldn't see Leia but I could feel her she was alive. 

Even though so many people just died, I relaxed a little knowing Kylo didn't just lose his family even if he doesn't talk to her. 

When I saw Kylo's fighter pull into the hanger on the Finalizer I finally pulled myself away from the window and sat on the couch waiting for Kylo to come home. 

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I was sitting on the couch when I heard the door slide open. Kylo stalked in and stop a few feet in front of me. I could see the conflict spread across his face. He was mad at himself for not killing Leia but he was relieved she was alive. It was no surprise he had trouble sleeping. He had a constant war in his mind. 

I carefully walked over to him and threw my arms around his neck pulling him into me. Even if he wouldn't admit it at this very moment he needed to be held. 

We stayed like that for a while. He clings on to me as if I was the only thing keeping him from floating away. 

"I-I couldn-" He tried speaking before I interrupted him. 

"Shhh it's okay we are both here and you're okay. That's all that matters." I said as I rubbed his back. Trying to calm him down as he did to me the day before. I looked up at him and planted a soft kiss on his lips. I could feel him instantly relax.

The kiss turned into more as it was one of the only ways I felt like I could comfort him at this time. My lips traveled down his neck and his hands wrapped around the back of my thighs pulling me into his arms.