His Runaway Bride

Chapter 18: Plan B

Jillian Klairo

Suddenly, I felt numb. Hindi ko naramdaman ang hapdi sa pagitan ng mga hita ko, o yung sakit ng katawan ko, o 'yung lagkit at pagod ng katawan ko. Nakakamanhid ang isipin na baka mabuntis ako. That thought alone scares the hell out of me. What more na ngayong may mga sperm na talaga sa pepe ko! Oh, my. Hindi ako pwedeng mabuntis, crap, crap!

"Dolcezza." Napatingala ako sa pinanggalingan ng masuyong tinig. It was Creed. His eyes were gently staring at me as he caressed my cheeks in a comforting manner. He's still on top and in me. I zoned out temporarily and now I snapped back feeling all the pain. My heart is pounding and my head is aching. I am about to have a meltdown.

"C-Creed, I-I can't be p-pregnant..I-I can't." My lips trembled as the tears clouded my vision. It's getting harder for me to see.

Sandali niyang ibinaba ang salamin ko at pinunasan ang mga luha ko.

"Creed..hindi ako pwedeng mabuntis..." Sabi ko ulit at tumitig sa kanyang mga mata..my heart is still racing..it's getting harder to breathe. I love him but we are still young..and we're students..we have our life ahead of us...and having a baby right now is definitely not part of it, just yet.

He raked his hand in his hair for a moment. He's freaking out too..but in silence.

"Y-you're right..w-wala akong alam sa p-pagiging Tatay...I-I, holy shit....Mama is gonna kill me." Napapikit siya sandali. My abandonment issues are inkling. Is he gonna leave me if ever..

He cupped my face.

"Hey, I know that look..Jillian, kung mabuntis ka, hindi kita iiwan, naiintindihan mo?" Seryoso niyang sabi sa akin. "Pananagutan kita.. I'll give you whatever you need as well as that kid...and I will support whatever you want to do....okay?"

Although that was comforting, that's not what we both want right now, at this time of our lives! Even if my heart is flattering I am still freaking out.

"I can't be pregnant..It has nothing to do with you, or what I am feeling for you...it's not the right t-time.." I'm hyperventilating.."O-our life is just starting, we're still students..we're not r-ready." Utal-utal kong sagot. I can't comprehend the fact that he confessed that he loves me just yet.

He leaned down and kissed my forehead.

"Hey, hey.." He caressed my cheeks. "Look at me.." Malambing niyang tawag. Imbes na mag-panic din siya ay kinakalma niya ako.

Humawak ako sa mga forearm niya, my eyes are starting to well with tears again.

"C-Creed.."

He nodded.

"Yes, I know, dolcezza. I understand you do not have to explain yourself...breathe..Per favore..breathe in and...out.."

Nagsimula kong gayahin ang kanyang breathing patterns, hanggang sa hindi ko na naramdaman ang bigat sa dibdib ko. Tumigil din ang nagba-badyang mga luha.

Masuyo niyang hinaplos ang aking noo.

"That's it...in and out.."

I did it again, until my shoulder muscles are no longer tense with anxiety.

"Right now, I have to pull out..alright?"

I looked down. Oh, shit. Tumingin akong muli sa kanya at tumango. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa kanyang mga braso.

"It's gonna hurt...but I'm going to do it slowly..okay?" He gently asked. His green orbs were observing my face, which is distorted with pain. Napalunok naman ako bago ako tumango. Ang kaninang parang walang hanggan na sarap at kiliti na nararamdaman ko ay napalitan ng hapdi sa pagitan ng aking hita. My legs were also aching. Habang inoobserbahan niya ang mukha ko ay nakakunot ang kanyang noo. It's like he's regretting that he's hurting me right now.