La Reyna de León (Queen of León)

Chapter 12

I got into my car and went to Luis's house. I didn't bother to tell my uncle I was going out. Honestly I didn't care anymore if I bed or died. Now I'm not scared of death. If you asked me before my family's killing I would have said yea, but now that they were killed in front of me. Death was not my fear anymore.

I get to Luis's house and he's standing at his front door. He gets into the passenger seat.
"Hey, what happened? What is it you were going to tell me?" He said.
I look around the streets to see if anyone was watching or following me. My uncle taught me to look at my surroundings.
"I can't tell you here we need to go to the beach. Don't talk until we get there ok?" I said.
"Um...ok." He said.
I drive really fast. I honestly didn't want anyone following us. Since this part of the beach was not easy to find and closed of. We finally make it there. I put the car in park and turn it off. Again looking around my surroundings.
"Ok what is it you wanted to tell me? Your really worrying me now." Luis said.
"One thing. Don't freak out." I said.
He nodded.
"Ok. My family was killed by the 12th street cartel. They made me.......made me watch them get gunned down." I said as tears come running down my face. Then I wipe them away. Have control. Without control comes chaos. I thought.
"Omg. I'm so sorry Maria. I wish you would have told me before. I would have been their for you. Did they hurt you?" He said.
"No. But there is something else I have to tell you. On why they killed my family." I said. I look at him. Second guessing if I should tell him. Either way I had to protect him since I love him. I don't want him dead at the hands of my enemies.

"The reason they killed them was because I'm the leader of the León Cartel." I said. He looks at me in disbelief. He turns away to look out the window. Have I lost him. Even if we did break up he was still in danger. He knows who I am now.
"Why didn't you tell me? Why! Huh. I would've never thought of you being a killer." He said. He was right I'm a murder. I have killed someone. And I knew there was going to be more people I will have to kill. I sit in silence before I say anything.
"I did it to protect you. I faked my death so my family wouldn't be targeted. But look what happened to them!!! They were killed by my enemies Luis!!! I guess I can't protect anyone from this game." I said.
He looks o at the horizon angrily.
"Luis you could get killed to you know! You and my uncle are the only loved ones I have now in my life. If you were to be killed by enemies. I would die too." I said.
"Answer me this two questions. Tell me the truth. Have you all ready killed someone? Will you be willing to kill again?" He asked.
Instantly I answer. "Yes to both." I didn't lie. And he knew it. This life was changing me and it was doing it fast. I didn't care.
He looks at me. Shocked but not really.
"I don't know what to say." He said.
We both sit in silence. My soul was becoming dark. I mean how could if my family was killed. They were murdered. Haven't even mentioned to him the times I got wasted because I didn't want to feel the pain anymore. Not even my uncle knew about it. I hide everything from them. That protective side of me. I was changing. I use to care about people. I would never been able to kill anyone before all this.
Now, I wouldn't hesitate to shoot someone in the head if it meant they would endanger Luis or my uncle. My family's murder changed me. Hijacked me. Something I can't go back from. Now there is now way back. I thought about what my uncle said to me again. Those words will always go with me. Now I realize.
This life will change you in way you thought you never could.
"Did they really kill your family in front of you?" He asked. I could see his face of concern.
"Yes.....shot them. My dad, my mom, my grandma, and.........my little brother." I said
To young. To gentle. I thought.
Then I hear on the radio. They play Ghost of you by 5 Seconds of Summer. My little brother dedicated this song to me before we came to Mexico. I was going to leave the house. I got a flashback to use dancing to this song around my room. He was helping me pack. I start to hyperventilate. I was having a mental breakdown. I miss him so much. He had his whole life ahead of him. I wanted to see him grow up. See him at his prom. See him graduate. He told me he wanted to be a actor like me. I inspired him he told me. That I was the bravest person he ever met. I cry my eyes out. I scream out that Luis looks concerned.
"Are you ok?" He said as he hugged me.
"It's ok. It's ok. I'm so sorry this happened to you." He said.
"My brother dedicated this song to me before we came here. I was getting ready to leave my house. He didn't want me to leave. He said it was like the ghost of me was still going to be at the house." I said. I thought it was the other way around now. The ghost of him roaming around the house.
"I'm sorry" he said. I look up to him and I kiss him. I need to feel comfort. He doesn't pull back. This song now has good and bad memories. One of my brother. And now one of my kids with Luis.
We pull apart. We look deep into each others eyes.
To young. To dumb to know things like love.
That's what we were.
"Now what?" He asked.
"What do you mean?"
"Since now I know your the cartel leader. What's going to happen to us?" He said.
I have a stern look on my face. In order for me to be with Luis. I would have to kill again. For his protection.
"I'm going after the leader of the 12th street. If he knew where my family was in the U.S. Then he knows who you and your relationship with me." I said.
"Your going to kill him?" He said.
"Yes. For your protection and your family's. I don't want to see you or your family die because of me." I said.
"You don't have to do this." He said
"Yea I do. Luis you don't know how this game works. The only way out is death. I have to kill him to show my enemies that I'm not playing around. I'm not a little girl anymore." I said.
"I can perfectly protect me and my family" he said.
"No you can't. Not these kinds of people Luis. You need me. And I need you." I said.
"Ok......Show me how to fight." He said.
"What?" I said.
"Yes. Show me how to defend myself from them. Show me how to use a gun."
I couldn't believe he said that.
"I want to be with you. I love you. And for that I'm prepared to sacrifice my life for you if necessary. I'm willing to go into this life with you." He said. No. I can't let him.
"No im not letting you do that Luis. I can't let you get caught in this." I said.
"Yes you can. And you will. Because I need money Maria. My old job fired me a month ago. I've applied to many jobs but none would accept me. My parents can't afford the rent anymore." He said. I didn't know this was happening to him. I was so caught up in my own things.
"Why didn't you say anything to me? I would have given you the money." I said.
"No. Maria I was taught to work for my money. I willing to work for you." He said.
I can't let him do it. I won't let him.
"No." I said.
"Yes you will Maria. I need to work for the money. Even if it's dirty work." He said.
What if he got caught by the 12th street cartel. I could risk him going out in the streets selling. He had to do something in the ascienda. So I could have him in close range. I could let him get involved though. I knew would I couldn't stop him though. So I didn't.
"I'm not going to have put in the streets selling. It's to risky the 12th street could get you." I said.
"So then what can I do." He said.
Then I knew what he could do.
"I'll need you to help me run this. I'll train you. I can have you close and out of risk fro them. I'll have to make the decision though." I said.
"Ok. I think that'll be good." He said.
"Training starts tomorrow. Be ready in the morning I'll have someone pick you up and drop you off at your house." I said.
I couldn't believe I was going to do this. I thought about what my uncle was going to say.  But then I didn't care. I was the leader now. From now on I make the final decisions.
I was the Reyna de León.
(Queen of León)

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