La Reyna de León (Queen of León)

Chapter 29

It was 2 am in the morning and I still could not sleep. I had a nightmare that Luis and my uncle were murdered by Emiliano. At first I didn't think much of it but I thought maybe it was a vision. I tried to sleep again but ended up with another nightmare. It was about Alex and Diego. Emiliano was taunting me that it was my fault they were killed. I woke up with sweat. I held on to my pillow.
I get up and head to the training room. I head to the treadmill and run in it for 20 minutes. I go to the weights and do some exercises for 30 minutes. I wrap my hands and wrist with boxing tape. I punch the bag. Images of Emiliano fill my head. I punch harder as they come. Each punch getting more and more powerful and faster. I yell out. Then I drop to my knees in exhaustion. I breath in and out to calm down my anger. I take the tape of and throw it on the floor. I see that I tore my knuckles and they are bleeding.
I head to my room and go in my shower. I stand there as the water hits me.
I get out and get dressed. I put on a t-shirt and some sweats. I was planning on going back to bed but it was 4 am. I went into my office and worked on the plan. With the Shoreline gang now on our side we had more of an advantage now. I look through the map of the field. It was massive and a lot of good places to hide. Half of our men and us were going to ambush from the woods in the back. At night it gets dark and have a better chance at not being seen of how many people we really had.
A knock at my door stuttered me.
"Come in." I said.
"Why are you awake at this time." My uncle said.
"Couldn't sleep. You?" I asked.
"Nope. I never can." He said.
"Guess that makes two of us." I said.
"The shoreline gang said they would be here tomorrow to look over the plan." He said.
"And has Hasashi said anything yet?" I asked.
"Yeah he'll be here tomorrow too." He said.
"Hmmmm."
"Look we have to be careful that none of the 12th members see us together with them. If they know we are conspiring against them with their enemies it could backfire." He said.
"Ok then have them come through the East route. It's longer but safer." I said. He nods.
"Do you wanna take a walk around the hacienda?" He asked.
"I don't think so I have to work on this." I said.
"We already have the plan ready. Don't worry." He said.
"Ok." I said as I sigh.

We walk out of the house and walk the horse barn. I see my black stallion and give him some carrots.
"Why did you wanna walk?" I said.
"I wanted to talk to you privately." He said.
"But we were in private."
"More secure place." He said.
I nod. My stallion was eating his carrots.
"How many people have you already killed?" He said.
That question caught me by surprise for a minute. I had no answer to that question.
"Hmmmm. You don't know do you?" He said.
"I don't have to tell you even if I did." I said. Why did he want to know. He's probably killed hundreds of people without me knowing.
"It's not like your any better than me as a person." I said.
"I don't kill just because I have a reason to." He said.
"Maybe killing isn't personal." I said.
"Yes it is. Killing people without any reason is bad. Killing people for a good reason, A GOOD CAUSE!" He yelled.
"Maybe if I had a different life I wouldn't be this way. Sometimes I can't help it." I said quietly. I lower my head because I had the urge to cry but I didn't.
"Well we don't get to choose our life. It chooses us." He said.
And it did. Life just doesn't like to give us things we want. It takes away the things we love the most.
We walk back to the house. We were quite the whole way back. Not much we could say to each other right now.

I was at Luis front door to his room. I gave a little knock.
"Come in." He said.
I walk in and I see him drawing something on his desk.
He turns to me.
"Hey. What you doing?" He said and smiled. His room was very well lite I made sure of that. He loved the outside a lot. I would've liked if we could have our own room together but my uncle didn't like the idea. Not that I cared what my uncle thought, just I would like it better if we ever get married. That's if we ever do.
"Nothing I was just going over the plan and had a walk with my uncle Rafa." I said.
I move closer to his desk and see what he was drawing. It was the outside of his window. It's like if I could stick my hand into it and think it was real.
"It's beautiful." I said. The mountains and the colors of the sun really looked aesthetically pleasing.
"Glad you like it." He said.
He gets up and turns on his music. The song was called YKWIM?
"Would you like to dance with me." He asked holding out his hand. I hesitate but I grab his hand.
"Ok." I said.
We hold each other as we dance along to the song. I lay my head on his chest. We dance slowly around his room. This was calming me down. Helped me get the plan out of my head. He was my silver lining. Maybe he might be too good for me. The way my life is maybe I don't deserve him. Neither did this life. The thought of losing him was horrible to me. 
As the song came to an end. So did our dance. We pull apart from each other.
"I'm going to go see my dad today. Do you wanna come?" He asked.
Before I could answer there was a knock.
"Yeah?" I said.
My uncle opened the door.
"Veronica is here to talk to you." He said.
"Ok I'll be right out." I said.
My uncle closed the door.
"Well I'm sorry. Maybe next time." I tell Luis. I kiss him and then I head for the door. I look back at him and smile. So does he. Then I leave the room.
The conversation I had with my uncle came to my head. I wondered what my life would have been like if I didn't live this one. If I didn't become this killer I am now. Maybe I wouldn't kill for sport. I knew I was bloodthirsty and I can't control it. I felt the adrenaline kick in.
Before I got into my office I pull aside one of my men.
"I need more 12 street members prisoners. I need them by tonight. Keep this a secret. You understand?" I commanded.
"Yes ma'am. I'll have them here." He said and then left. I wanted revenge for what Emiliano did to my family. The best I can do besides take his territory and kill his members. Scare more people into not mess with me.