La Reyna de León (Queen of León)

Chapter 6

As we arrived at the ascienda I go straight to my room and take a shower. The shower fills with the color red cause of the mans blood. I sit in the shower as water pour down on me.
Now there is no way back. No coming back from this. I took that mans life. Yes, there was no coming back from this.
I start thinking of a song that relates to this life. Doomed by BMTH. I start to think of the chorus of the song.
So come rain on my parade, cause I wanna feel it. Come shove me over the edge, cause my head is in overdrive. I'm sorry but it's to late, and it's not worth saving. So come rain on my parade.
I think we're doomed.
What I would give to be able to listen to music right now. Music helps me calm down.
I get out of the shower and dress into my clothes. I decided to throw away the clothes with the blood. I wish I could throw that memory of killing that man but I couldn't the less I try to think about it the more it pushes into my mind. I decided not to sleep since the fear of closing my eyes and seeing that man would come back.
I hear a knock at my door. "Who is it?" I asked.
"It's me, your Tio."
"Come in"
My uncle opens the door. And shuts it behind him. "I'm sorry you had to go through that but you had to do it." He said
"Did I really? Because you threatened my family's lives." I said.
"There is something I didn't tell you about this man or the 12th street cartel." He said. He sat next to me on my bed.
"What?" I said
"They threatened to kill you and your family. That man was the cousin of the leader of the 12th street cartel. They knew you were going to be the leader. So I had you kill him to show them you weren't some scared little girl. They were going to kill me and you." He said.
What? They were conspiring against my family. They were going to kill us all. Making this even more dangerous of a game.
"How do you know this? Why didn't you tell me before?" I said
"Because I wanted to see if you could pull the trigger without you know they wanted to kill the family. If you were ruthless enough." He said.
"Was I?" I asked
"Ehhh......maybe." He said. "Also good thing we could stop him before he got the info to the 12th street cartel." He added.
"I'll do the training for my families safety. I'll do it. If it meant for their safety." I said.
"Ok......I'm going ask you something." He said
"Ok what is it?"
"Would you have pulled the trigger If I didn't threaten you?" He said.
Then I had a dark thought come through my head and the answer was Yes I would have. I don't know why.
"Probably, I don't know why but that dark though came through my mind. I wish it didn't." I said.
"Mmmmm. Ok. Hey I was going to ask if you wanted to come with me into town to do some business. As part of your training? Maybe we could go to the fair there?" He asked.
"Sure why not I guess. Maybe get my mind off of my first killing." I said.
"Ok. Be ready in an hour."
"Ok"
Then he left my room. I just needed to get away from this house for a little. I needed fresh air. I started to feel as if he cared about me. Like a niece. Maybe since he hasn't seen my dad for the longest time he start to care for me. I had a feeling he misses my dad. I wonder what happened to the rest of their family. Why is it only my dad and my uncle? I wonder how my parents must be suffering right now. Grieving for my loss even though I'm alive and partially well. My uncle told me they got a doppelgänger of me at the funeral. I wonder how my little brother must feel. We had a bond like my uncle and my dad did. Protect each other because that's what we do. Now I realize it runs in the family. Protecting each other no matter what.