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11:39am 3/8/2021

everyone keeps telling me what I'm doing is a bad idea and should do it for myself but what they don't understand is I can't do anything for myself, when I think of getting better for myself I feel like lying in bed all day. What's the point in trying?

I don't know if I can do it, everyone is telling me otherwise and maybe I should listen to them but if I don't move on with life I'm going to end up killing myself. I thought that if someone was waiting for me I could do it but nobody is waiting for me, I'm giving up. I'm sorry A, I shouldn't have drug you into this.

All hope I felt is gone, I'm not gonna reach out for help. I'm not going to do anything anymore, If I do end up killing myself, check the blue notebook. I have a note, what to tell my friend, i only mention mom, A, and D. a

i'm sorry