Toxic Waste of Love

Telling Truth

Tre'Nell In The Media
Desmond POV

I really feel bad for what I did to Ahjiea. I don't know what I was thinking. I know I really hurt the only person who really loved and cared for me. I still can't believe I hurt him so many times I don't even think he will ever forgive me. I really love him he is the only boy that I ever had feelings for. I loved the way he talked. I loved his body and how he stood strong and didn't give it up. I loved that he made me better in many ways. I have to admit I just wanted to smash when we got into a relationship but he made me fall for him.

I never really had a good life. But with Ahjiea he made it better. When I was down and wanted to quit he held me down. I remember when my brother died he was right there. Even though I had cheated on him with his cousin Tommy two days before. He still was there for me. He gave me his heart and I burned, stomped, and killed it. He trusted me even though he had trust issues. He respected that I still wanted to be with the ladies. He didn't care as long as they didn't end up pregnant.

He really loved me and I didn't give him the love he needed back. I really wish I could have taken it all back and just held him in my arms. But now I will never get the chance to really love him.

Ahjiea POV
I sat and thought about all that he did to me. As I rode to go see him. I thought about how much he hurt me and I just kept loving him. He continuously broke my heart. I don't even cry anymore my heart is completely shattered. I really thought he loved me. I pulled into the jail not know how to feel. I don't know how it's going to go but I know I need closure.

I walked in the building sign in and wait for them to take me to meet him. I was really getting anxious by the minute. They took me to a room with a black chairs and a wood table. The officers walked out and I was rushed with emotion. I'm afraid I love him to much and when I see him I am going to fall back for him. But I also have so much anger that I could kill his ass on spot.

They walked him into the room and he sat down and looked at me. I looked him in his eyes and just relaxed. He looked at me and tears fell down his face.

He said "Look I'm so very sorry. I hurt you to yo core. I really wasn't attend to break your heart the way I did. I wouldn't blame you if you never for gave me. I broke you and I did things to you that I really regret hurting you." He was crying hard that he couldn't speak. I tried not to cry but the emotional toll this boy had on me was heavy.

He said "I know I'm stupid. I shouldn't have lead you on in beginning knowing I only wanted to hit and quick. But you changed my heart. I fell for you and ended up hurting you more than I intended to."

I said "I forgive you cause I know if I hold to it I will never be free. I can't believe I still let you hurt me. I should have just walk away but I couldn't you had my heart wrapped in your pretend to be love. But I love you and wish you the best. I really needed this and am actually feeling free and not holding any emotion anymore. I love you with all of me. Bye"

I then got up and get walked away from one of my biggest dread in life. I'm glad I left everything on the table. Love was always a mystery to me. I've always told myself never to love or catch feelings for anyone. But I did and that were I went wrong. I'm free now and can live my life. I looked back and seen them bringing him out the room. I can't believe I'm actually walking away from him. He had my heart and did me wrong and now he let me go.

Love is all a mystery till that love is messed with or broken. Heart trying to breathe but it can't cause it's lost. And when that heart is found its broken and can't be repaired. Love is love. But that love can be the greatest affair.