Toxic Waste of Love

Lost In Love

Shayona In Media
Ahjiea POV

I went downstairs and started dinner. I was lost. I don't know what to do with my life. Everything is just happening and I can't slow it down. But I finished cooking and set everything up and went to get everybody. I see Tre'Nell still in my room but he sleep. This nigga a little to comfortable. I looked at him sleep. I mean I can't lie I really like Tre'Nell he different from all these nigga. But I just don't want to get hurt or be in a relationship.

I jump on top of Tre lap. He woke up real quick.

He said "You ready for the dick ain't you."
I got off his lap and had an attitude.
He said "You mad now"
I say nothing and he then grabbed me.
He said "You hear me "
Then he kiss my neck and smiled at me. I couldn't help but smile cause this nigga know how to get me. We walked downstairs so we can eat.

I had gotten a text from Desmond while I was eating.
Text Convo
Demond - Jello
Me- Wat do you want Demond
Demond- Can you meet me at the park? Please 😢😢
Me- For What
Demond - Just come
Me- IG

Dinner over and Tre went home and I told Akin were I was going. I walked down the street to the park and seen Demond playing basketball with his niggas from school. I walk up and sit on the bench and wait for him to notice I'm here. His nigga was staring hard. I was weirded out so I looked at my phone.

Demond finally came over to me. He smiled at me.

I said "What did you want me to come here o r?" I looked up and seen his friend stilltaring rushed it off though.

He said "I missed you and needed to really talk to you."
I said "What do you want to talk to me about?"

He smiled knowing I can't resist it and said "I really need you in my life. I thought me being with someone else would feel this missing space but it didn't. I really fucked up by cheating on you. I really love you and only you. Please give me another chance I really just want you in my arms so I can hold you again."

I couldn't help but be a fool for him again. I really didn't want to but at the same time I did want to go back. But this dumb ass nigga had my heart.

I said "You get this one chance if you mess this up don't ever ask for me to come back."

He smiled at me and stood up.

He said "Ima go back to the game with them niggas. I will come see you later. I love you."

He then walked away and went back to his niggas. I started walking my ass home. When I got there my brother and Nina wasn't there. So I just went and layed down till Demond comes . He came about 20 minutes. His smiling ass. As soon as he got in the door he hugged me. Like really nigga you didn't miss me that much. We went in my room and talked till I fell asleep. I can't lie I did miss him badly.

The next morning I woke up to Demond arm around me. I thought he would have went home. I woke him up and he grunted. I got out the bed and headed to the bathroom so I can take a shower and get for the funeral. I had on my church pants and shirt. I don't know if I would be able to see him in that casket. Demond got up and kissed me and left. My brother still hasn't came back. So I drove my car to the funeral. I pulled at the church we go to every Sunday. I started getting emotional as I got out the car and headed towards the door.

The funeral was going good. I was up next to make a speech. I really wanted to have my Bestfriend back again. I started breaking down crying. I got up and walked to the podium.

" Sam was one of the greatest people I know. He was unusual but he was his self ( breaking down crying). I love my bestfriend with every thing in me. I hate that it had to be him. Yea he wasn't perfect so what he was my Bestfriend no matter what he did. He stuck by my side when I needed him and I stood by his but now I can't stand by his side because he gone. (Started crying again) I love you Sam and thank you for being a friend."

I couldn't take it my Bestfriend was gone from me. I just broke down and cried couldn't do nothing else. Why him is all I'm asking? Why not me? He mother and father came and hugged me tight and cried with me. The funeral was over and we went to the burial site and they had me sing a song I wrote for him.

"An angel had to go back to heaven. It broke people heart but had be done. We know that angel is watching from above. His time was cut soon but he lives on. He loved everyone and had the biggest heart. Ohh*5

An angel has went back home again."

I couldn't finish the rest because I was crying to hard. They lowered him in and he was finally gone. Hope and Julia came up and hugged me. We all stood there and watched as he finally was gone.