Toxic Waste of Love

So What

Chris in the Media
Ahjiea POV
We got to my house and started talking about our lives. We talked about Desmond and how stupid I was to fall for him. I just kept asking myself why the hell did I fall for him over and over again. It crazy how you can love someone with every ounce in you but it all can be just a lie. A lie cause that person feels your head with I love you's and your the one for me. We fall for it each time. We rather look stupid than be happy.

I just had to sit back and think what I needed to do to love myself again. I can't keep being broken or looking stupid for someone. Shayona had went home I was left there wondering what's next. There was a knock at the door that made me lose my train of thought. I got up to see who it was. It was Tre'Nell looking sexy as hell. He smiled at me and I realized I had feelings for him.

He said "You ain't goin let a nigga in."
I said "Watever nigga"

He started laughing and walked in and sat on the couch.

He said "You ain't goin come sit down with me."
juI walked over and sat on the other couch.

He said "That's how you do a nigga." I started laughing he gave me a straight face. I got up and walked to the couch he was sitting on. He started smiling and grabbed me. He put his arm around me and I laid my head on his chest. We fell asleep like that but woke up when we heard a knock at the door. I got up to see who it was. It was Chris.

He said "Sorry for just dropping by I just wanted to see you.

I was shocked that I forgot Tre'Nell was here. He said "Who at the door?" Chris looked at me like who the fuck is that nigga. I said "Do want to come in?" He walked into the house and looked around. I was hoping they got along with each other. We walked into the living room and sat down. I introduced Chris to Tre'Nell. They seem to be getting along.

I walked upstairs to get my phone and to see what they were talking about while I was gone. They didn't talk much so I hurry and came back downstairs. Chris was getting up as I came downstairs. He said "I gotta go but I will talk to you later." He hugged me and left. I knew I was bout to get it from Tre so I walk slowly over to where he was.

He said "What you looking scared for?"
I said "I'm not what are you talking about." I tried to play it off but he know when I'm lying because I smile. I could never get away with anything at all but my brother could always get away with everything.

He said "Why you lying you thought I was goin cuss yo ass out didn't you."

I said "No I could care less if you cuss me out." I my best not to smile it was working but he smiled at me and it went out the window. I loved his smile and he knew it would make me laugh. He is really a good dude. He has a big heart too. I lost my train of thought because I had got a phone call.

It was from jail so I knew it was most likely Desmond. I couldn't believe he actually calling me. I answered it and he sounded happy. I went to my room to talk to him.

He said "I know I'm the last person on earth you want to talk to but I need to see if you would come see me so we can talk about what happened."

I didn't know what to say. I was really lost in words but I said "I'll come see you"

I couldn't believe I just said I going to see him. He really broke my heart but I'm going to see him.
He said "Thank you"

I hung the phone up and the memories of the times we had and that day came flooding back like the Pacific Ocean. I tried not to cry but it was just no use. I am strong, talented, and fearless. I can't keep letting myself get hurt by worthless people. Cause I can't keep picking up piece of a broken heart.