Begin Again

Part 4

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With a deep sigh, you let yourself fall on your bed after you returned home. Wonho and Mila are still gone and you need this peace. For hours your stare at the ceiling and fight your tears. Seeing him again, how cold he was. This hurts you more than you wanna admit. Weren't you so much further before you came back here? Didn't you think that you healed from the downfall of your past? From your broken heart? From him? Slowly you sit up and grab your phone. Like naturally your hands pull it out of its case and for a long moment you stare at the dried little wildflower in it. You changed your phone a couple of times in the past years. And to you, it was a matter of course that this flower belonged in its case. No matter what. Carefully you take it out and turn it in your hand...

5 Years Earlier

"... you should've seen his face", Kyun said. "He was all over with pudding, I swear this was the best moment of my life!"

Your laughter filled the car and you held your stomach cause it hurt so much and at the same time you wanted to cry cause this dude made you so damn happy. You sat at the meadow until the sun went down. For another breathtaking eternity, you watched the night sky, counted shooting stars, and cuddled and laughed and talked. Your curfew forced you home and you hated it. You wished you could stay with him the entire night.
When he pulled over in front of your house you sighed gloomily before you looked at him.

"Thank you for this!"

He just smiled. "I'm glad you liked it..."

Immediately you shook your head. "No, I loved it!"

You opened your seatbelts and got out of the car. He walked around it and you both looked at each other a little irresolutely. You wanted to kiss him. You wanted to feel him so badly.

Suddenly he turned and grabbed something from inside the car. Smirking he turned back again and held a little wildflower in his hand, barely bigger than your index finger.

"You can't pick them!", you scolded him. "They will die!"

"Put it in your phone case!", he chuckled and passed it to you. "You won't see it but you'll know it's there. Always ..."

Again you smiled and turned the little flower in your hand.

"I will...", you said and took a step forward, leaned a bit closer, about to make a move to kiss him but he suddenly pushed you away gently.

"Wait!"

Growling you threw your head back. "Oh, gawd what?"

"I'm just ...", he mumbled and you giggled as you realized how nervous he suddenly was. "I don't wanna hurt you...", he whispered and you tilted your head confused.

"Why hurting me?"

"Because...", Kyun bit his lip, avoided eye contact, and stared at the ground. "I always end up hurting someone..."

You couldn't believe what a guy you've found. Someone so hot and yet so adorable and caring. Smiling you laid your fingers under his chin and made him look up to you.
"I don't care!", you spoke softly.

He frowned and shook his head.
"You don't care? You do know what it feels like getting hurt, don't you? It ... hurts...", he stammered and you laughed loudly before supporting your forearms on his chest.

"You should write poems...", you whispered and laughed again.

But he obviously wasn't in the mood for jokes anymore. You hated this girl for making him feel like this. He didn't deserve this. He deserved the world.