Begin Again

Part 12

Here's the final part!
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Nervously you twist that little wildflower you just picked from the meadow in your fingers while sitting on the stairs to Kyuns house as you hear an engine approaching.

Gulping you watch his car coming closer and parking next to yours.

"Have you been waiting long?", he asks as he gets out.

Immediately you shake your head while you try to control your body.

"Sorry", he says while grabbing his bag from the backseat. "Got held up by the boys... Min has so much energy, sometimes...", he says in a completely neutral tone while coming over to you. "I wanna kill him!", with these words he throws the bag on the porch, falls next to you on the stairs and you both remain silent for a moment while you play with that flower in your hand.

You don't know what to say. You don't know about his mood, don't know about anything. And that makes it so unpredictable.

"Kyun...", you finally dare to say and you both look at each other for a second.

You can't stand him looking at you, you're still so ashamed. Without a word, you shake your head and stare back at your hands.

"I don't know what to say to make this up again", you say softly. "I have no idea what to say to tell you how sorry I am..."

For a moment he remains silent until he sighs.
"Okay...", he says. "Then let me start..."

You bite your lip and close your eyes, so scared of what comes.

"I wanna apologize...", he suddenly says and your head shoots up to him. Immediately you shake your head.

"Don't you dare to apologize!", you whisper. "You did nothing wrong! I—"

"Y/n?", he interrupts you and you fall silent. "Let me talk. Please!"

You feel yourself blushing with shame again and nod. He takes a deep breath.

"I wanna apologize because back then... I didn't take you seriously. Wonho made me realize a few things yesterday and one thing was this. I never understood what this does to you. This feeling of being caged, that you're suffocating", he explains while staring into the emptiness. "I mean... I was there. I listened to you, I comforted you. But I never really realized what that meant..." he looks at you.

"All those times you woke up crying hysterically... I should've known that you were so damn close to losing your mind. But I waved it off... like it was only a mood swing or something..."

For a long moment, you look at him and hate yourself that he feels this way.

"I never felt it that way", you whisper. "I always found comfort and shelter in your embrace. I never felt like you'd let me alone with this..."

Kyun shakes his head. "But all I could give you was an eventually... because I thought this would be enough. It wasn't. Proof was the night you left. And god Wonho he said it so many times, he really yelled at me so hard for ignoring your state because it was too uncomfortable for me to face. He said I shouldn't be surprised that you left..."

You can't help but smile to yourself. Wonho always felt the need to protect you, since you are his wife's best friend. And he didn't even hold back when it came to his best friend. Mila and Wonho deserve each other so much...

"This was not your fault...", you say in a low voice.

"Maybe this wasn't...", he shrugs. "but I should've tried to understand you a little better. So I'm sorry for this..."