Begin Again

Part 10

I'll just finish this now 🖤

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"I need you to forgive me, Kyun", you whisper. "When I am ready to forgive you, you need to forgive me as well!"

Kyun narrows his eyes and tilts his head.
"F-forgive me?", he spits out. "What did you forgive me? That I didn't jump into that car with you in the middle of the night?"

5 Years Earlier

Five years ago you just turned 18. Your birthday was perfect you won't lie about this but this is not what this is about. It was the day after. With you being full age now, the feeling of the walls coming closer crushed you. Again you felt like suffocating, felt like your entire life was already planned for you. And you had no right to say in a matter. Your parents suddenly talked about marriage. Marriage! You were only 18! And yes you loved Kyun. God, you loved him so much but you weren't ready for this.

So as usual this conversation at the dinner table with your parents escalated. Hysterically screaming and crying you packed your things and drove over to Changkyun's house. Crying like a lunatic you pounded against his door. As it finally got opened you were barely able to breathe.

"Y/n!", his mother spoke and looked at you shocked. "For god's sake what is wrong?"

You stammered words between your tears and your tries to breathe but no chance.

"CHANGKYUN!", you heard her yelling while she laid her arms around you, tried to calm you.

"Fuck!", Kyun gasped and seconds later he held you in his embrace. "Go inside!", he said to his mom while you cried hysterically into his chest. "I got this!"

For a long moment, he held you tightly.
"Breathe babe!", he whispered, cupped your cheeks, and looked at you worried. "Breathe... yes!", he smiled as your breath calmed down a little. "Shhhh! What happened?"

"I... I ... I'm leaving!", you gasped crying. "I can't stay. I can't stay here!"

Kyun looked at you wide-eyed. "Where do you wanna go?"

"To-to my aunt. She lives in the ci-city!", you kept on crying. "I can't stay here, Kyunnie. I-I can't breathe!"

"It's okay, babe!", he whispered and hugged you again. "Why don't we go inside and you sleep a night over this okay? And tomorrow we talk ag—"

"No!", you yelled and pushed him away softly. "No Kyunnie. I can't. Please. It feels like I'm dying inside. Please. Please you have to come with me!"

He ripped his eyes open in shock. "What?"

"I talked to my aunt! We can both live there!", you explained while the tears running down your cheeks. "We can finish our last year in the city. Far away from here! Please babe. Please come with me!"

For a long moment, he stared at you until he shook his head. "I can't come with you, babe. I just moved here! I can't just leave again!"

You knew this would be his answer. You knew that he wouldn't keep his promise. Angry you ripped yourself out of his grip and walked over to your car.

"Babe!", he said behind you and held your arm. "Please let's talk about this!"

You shook your head in a trance. "I can't talk anymore. I'm done living in the fantasies of a better life", again you cry. "I love you so fucking much but I have to go!", you laid your hands around his cheeks and kissed him. "You were the best th-thing that ever ha-happened to me! I will never forget you I promise!"

One last time you kissed his lips while he stared at you wide-eyed.

"Babe...", was the last thing you heard from him before you shut the door and drove down the street out of town...