Begin Again

Part 9

Last one for today 🥰

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Angry you walk out as you suddenly feel someone grabbing your arm a little harsh.

"What the fucking hell are you doing?", Joo snarls at you and you look at him shocked. "Do you have an idea how long it took for Kyun to get over you? And now you're coming back and break his heart again? What the fuck is wrong with you?!"

Wide-eyed your jaw drops, the tears still running down your cheeks. Angry you push him away from you.

"I'm trying! Everything!", you yell at him and push him again. "To prevent him from getting hurt again! But your golden boy refuses...", again you shove him. "TO LISTEN! Why does nobody cares how I feel?", tears running down your cheeks and you're unable to stop them. "I LOST HIM TOO! But it was so easy for you, wasn't it? No one of you ever reached out to me except for Mila and Wonho. No one cared, no one wanted to hear my side of this story! You heard his side and that's all that mattered to you!"

Joo looks at you shocked. "HE WAS DEVASTATED, Y/N!", he says in a harsh voice. "YOU JUST LEFT HIM THERE'S NOTHING TO EXPLAIN!"

"I WAS DEVASTATED TOO!", you cry. "I WAS ALONE AND NOBODY CARED FOR ME! Now let me the fuck alone, Jooheon. If you really wanna talk about questionable relationships you should reconsider your engagement with your Hannah!"

Again he rips his eyes open. "What the hell? What the fuck did she do to you? You're such a bitch, y/n! Coming back here after five years and judging all of us! Who are you for god's sake?"

"Fuck you!", with these words you run out of the hotel.

Crying you hide behind some trees and support yourself in your legs. You breathe heavily and the pain in your chest is so unbearable.

It takes you a long moment to calm down again. You would've just gone up to your room but Mila... You have to focus on her. So you take a deep breath, go to the restroom, do your make-up, put on a fake smile, and walk back in with dignity.

You know that Mila knows what's going on. But you both talked about this topic so many times before. You don't wanna repeat this at her own wedding when she's already exhausted as fuck. And you don't really want to talk. There's nothing to talk about. You already used to be the bad guy in this story. That's why Mila had to promise to never tell Wonho the truth. You're done with this.

When she says good night about two hours later, she hugs you tightly.

"Whatever it is...", she whispers into your ear. "We both know you have to go through this alone, right? But no matter what decision you make...", she loosens the hug and looks at you caring. "I'm with you. I always will. I love you so much!"

Her words mean the world to you. She was the only one, the only one that understood you all this time. The only one that knew the truth and she kept your secret. Even if it almost costed her friendship with the others. She was on your side all these years. Unconditionally. And you'll never forget that.

"I love you too!", you say and hug her again. Wonho pokes into your cheek smiling. "Use the rest of the night to find out what's best for you! Good night, pumpkin!"

Laughing you wrinkle your nose. "Good Night lovebirds!"

Smiling you stand by the stairs and watch the newlyweds walking up giggling and kissing. Seeing them so happy really makes you forget it all...

With your duty done you decide to get some fresh air before you'll go to sleep as well. For a long moment, you stand at the railing of the veranda again and stare into the emptiness as you suddenly hear laughing and chatter. You turn your head and see Shownu coming out, holding hands with a beautiful girl.