the exes

didnt react well

Fuming for the rest of the day, by the time school got out, mew left in speed, he wanted to go home, his boyfriend tried to keep up, to mews car, he then got in, to then roll down the window to eye.
"Mew? What's wrong? Why are you wanting like this?"
Mew signed, to then turn his head.
"Mm, just irritated, hurry up, let me take you home."
His boyfriend made a pout to then hang his head to go about to then get into the passenger side, he then placed his back pack to the floor, to place his seat belt on to eye mew, has he placed the car in reverse to then take him home.
"Mew..... Why are you like this? Did I...."
Mew rolled his eyes.
"Saku, it's not always about you, I'm just having a bad day okay!" He said a bit sternly.
Saku's face dropped, he then took a deep breathe to then chew at his cheek, moving his hand shaikly up he then place it to his leg, at a stop light, mew looked down to then eye him.
"Saku..... We've talked about this..... I'm..... Not ready to go the...."
Saku signed to then take his hand away to place his head to his upper shoulder to look forward.
"I know I know, your not ready to go the extra mile in our relationship yet, no kissing on the lips, no.... Experimenting also no sex..... Because we need to be dating longer and build up our trust, I know....mm, that's what makes me fall so much harder for you."
Saku placed his arm to mews stomach to move his head up and down.
Mew signed to give a sad face. In truth, that was not the real reasons why he wouldn't go that extra mile, it was because of gulf.
He then took his hand from the wheel to then wrap his arm about his shoulder to hug him a bit tighter.
"You are a real trooper saku."
He nodded.
Mew then turned his head to then drive forward feeling ashamed a bit.
To his house, mew parked to take his arm away, saku leaned away to eye mew, to then turn his head to then grab his back pack.
He then got out to eye mew with the door open.
"Whatever is troubling you, I hope it passes soon." He gave him a Bright smile to then close the door to then part.
Mew watched him go to then place his forehead to the wheel.
I'm such a cold hearted person, fuck!
Moving his forehead up, he then reversed to go home.
Parked, he got out to reach behind to grab his back pack to then get out to go home.
Inside, he placed his bag to the side, to then take his shoes off. Going to the kitchen, he looked around to see his mother and sister to the table talking, his father with his body to the counter on the phone talking loudly, mew then went to the fridge to grab something to eat too then leave, no one even knowledge he was there, being the youngest, they usually didn't, that was why he was able to get away with a few things, nothing bad, but that is why he was able to spend the night over at Gulfs place a lot more then a 15 year old should be doing.
In his room, he went to his desk to sit to the chair to place the food upon, to place a finger to the can to circle about the rim.
What.... What was gulf don't with that other? Why did he look so happy? Has he fully moved on from an us? Looking at his face this morning, he looked very distraught and jealous but maybe it's because he wants to be in a relationship too.....
Mew signed to grit his teeth, turning his head to his closed for, his eyes darted, to then move about to go to his lower drawer to pull it out, to then shuffle some things about, he then grabbed a photo him and gulf took when they were dating to bring it about to eye.
He took a deep breathe in to look upon them in a close embrace, hugging the other with smiles, they had taken this at a fair in one of those photo booths, they had a great time, didn't even have to hide there relationship since it was a few towns over, they were even able to hold hands in public.
Mew placed his head to his hand to really eye.
I...... Shouldn't have broken up with you, but you wouldn't talk about....
Mew signed heavily to move back to then place the photo to his drawer to eye, he then wrapped his arms about to furrow his brow softly.
Why couldn't you just let me in? Saku does that, I almost know everything about him, but gulf.... Why do you have to be so closed off? We were friends for so long and even dated still nothing, I..... Just wanted to know you more.....I just wanted to know everything about you.....
Mew turned his head to look to his can of drink to then grab to open to down the contents, placing it to the top of the desk he moved it back to place his arm to the top to place his chin upon it.
What am I going to do about this? We are broken up mew, he has ever right to move on, even though I haven't, I'm only with saku to make gulf jealous, I was the one to first ask him out, I'm just trying to have him be the one to....
Mew shook his head to then get up to go to his bed to lay to his back, to place his hands to his eyes feeling like a horrible human being, in Truth he knew that is what he was from how he was being but he couldn't help it.
Taking a deep breathe he placed his arms to either side to look up at the ceiling.
There has to be a way to get gulf away from any other potential person, but how should I go about it without looking obvious?
Maybe I should just tell gulf how I feel and....
Mew turned to his side to shake his head.
Did that a bit when we broke up, he didn't even try to stop it, just gave me a dead stare. I'm not over him, i think I need to up the anti a bit with saku, make gulf really jealous, but how? I am not going to break my rule, no kissing and especially no sex, I want gulf to be my first.
Mew signed to close his eyes.
But.... How is that ever going to happen? How can we go back to what we once we're? What I'm doing, has kept the others at Bay and gulf where I want him, but.....I don't think it's enough anymore, what else should I be doing?
Mew took a deep breathe to try and think, unfortunately he fell asleep, but he came up with another plan, he hoped would help without knowing it was a bad move.