the exes

damn this heart of mine!

Going to his seat, gulf slammed his back pack down to the floor, to then sit, to wrap his arms about himself to look to the top of his desk to breathe hectically.
Saku turned his head to eye a bit confused to then look forward to see mew come about with his head hung, to then go before saku's desk. He looked up at him.
"Mew? Are you...."
"Um saku..... Can we.... Switch seats?"
Saku raised his brow to look at him a bit surprised.
Gulf flexed his jaw to then dart his eyes, just then saku moved his head to the side to see the teacher come in.
"Mr..."
Mew signed to then take his seat to keep his eyes to the top of his desk to place his back pack to the side to stay in his sullen state.
Saku kept his eyes to him.
"Mew.... Are you okay?" He whispered.
Mew shrugged to keep his eyes to the top of his desk to not say one word, saku eyed him up and down to then look to the teacher to then chew at his inner cheek, something happened between him and arti before and he didn't know what to do about it.
Has the class went on, mew placed his hand to his chin to then keep his eyes down to lay his arm fall towards gulf.
Gulf peered his eyes to the action to furrow his brow, he then looked to mew and he could tell he was fighting back something.
Gulf then looked to the teacher has he had his back to them to write to dart his eyes.
Dammit! Why am I feeling bad when all mew has done is......fuck!
Widening his eyes a bit, mew leaned back to place his arm to the desk, to then look first at saku who was taking notes to then gulf who looked forward to do the same.
Mew then peered his eyes down to see gulf had placed his hand to his to Hold.
His heart started to beat quick.
Mew then looked back to gulf.
Licking his lips, he then leaned over a bit.
"What are you...." He whispered.
Gulf kept his head hung to keep writing.
"If you want me to let go I will....... Other then that, just pay attention." He whispered back.
Mews eyes darted to then turn his head to look at the teacher.
He took a deep breathe in, to place his other hand back to his chin to look forward, mew couldn't help but grip back with a slight smile.
Know he cares for me but.....
Mew took a deep breathe to continue to hold, he couldn't help it.
By the end of class, everyone else rised to start to leave, saku then looked to mew who kept sitting has did gulf.
"Are you.... Coming?"
Mew looked to him.
"In a bit."
Saku shrugged to then leave, he made a face, to then sign, he was going to meet up with arti and felt like shit about it, espacially when he was going behind mews back about it.
He shook his head.
Nothing is going to happen, can talk to others, no big deal. No matter if I'm starting to....
Saku shook his head again to go forth a bit conflicted.
Mew watched him go, to then turn his head to eye gulf, who kept his eyes down to tap his pencil, still holding onto mews hand feeling conflicted himself.
Mew then took a deep breathe in, to then gulp.
"What now gulf? Or are we going to keep sitting in here holding hands like this."
Gulf took a deep breathe in.
"How.... You were acting when you came in here...... Isn't fair mew...... You have done all of this to yourself and...."
Mew took a deep breathe to move his hand about.
"Please let go gulf........I want to go home."
Mew turned his head to hang it.
Gulf shook his head a bit..
"How you are..... Being right now mew..... Isn't fair. Your making me feel like this is all my fault when you....."
Mew turned his head.
"That is not at all my intention.....if you would just....."
Gulf snapped his head to the side to glare.
"If I came to you, if I broke up saku for you, that's not at all fair, rather you asked me out in the first place that does not mean after all you have done I should....."
Mews eyes darted.
"Gulf..... Please let go of my hand."
Gulf signed to then do that to get up grabbing his back pack to place to his desk to put his things roughly into his bag back to mew to shake his head.
"I cant believe, I'm trying to make you feel better, your an asshole mew!"
Gulf then placed his back pack on to then go about, mew got up quick, to wrap his hand to his wrist.
Gulf stopped to hang his head to roll his eyes.
"What do you want mew!"
Mew took a deep breath to let go of his wrist to then wrap his arms about gulf to hold him tight.
"I want you gulf. I love you, rather you think I understand that word or not. I'm so sorry for my plans that I thought were right..... They only pushed you away rather then you wanting to come back....."
Mews breathing shuttered, too flex his jaw to let gulf go to then turn to grab his back pack, to then go around.
Gulf raised his head to watch him go, to breathe heavily.
He couldn't stop his feet from moving forward to then catch up with mew.
Going a bit quicker, mew then got to his car, to slam the door shut to then look to the other side has gulf came in, breathing heavily to eye.
Mew looked him up and down.
"Gulf..... Why are you...."
Gulf made a face, to then lurched himself forward to place his hands to either side of mews face to then pull him for a deep kiss to furrow his brow.
God damnit! He thought.