the exes

not looking forward to tomorrow

Going home, gulf breathed heavily has he walked very quick from the bus, he then placed his back to the door to look forward gripping the bag that was too one hand, to shake his head, he then brought his other hand to his forehead to take deep breaths trying to calm himself.
Taking his hand down, he then went to his bedroom, to toss the bag to his bed to eye it while chewing the this inner cheek.
Signing, he then step forward to place his hands to the bag to then un zip, to then take out his soiled shirt, opening it, he hung it before himself, to eye down.
He shook his head.
So.... It was real..... We.... Came together and.... And....ugh!
Bundling the shirt, gulf turned to then go outside to the garage can to then remove the lid to then throw it away, he eyed the can to shake his head.
Prick! Asshole! Conniving, son of a!
Gulf signed to then turn, he wanted to take a shower, he felt dirty.
Inside, he placed his hands to the wall, to hang his head, to let the water hit the back of his neck.
Gulf had his eyes closed to take very deep breathes.
Why mew.... Why did you do that?
Your boyfriend was right there? Everyone was all around us? Then for you to act like nothing happened and was all over saku? What the hell! Why are you playing with me? Are you two not.... Is that why you.....
Gulf flexed his jaw to then let a few tears come out that started to swirl with the water.
After his warm shower, gulf was to the kitchen table, in the chair, leaned into it, with his arms wrapped, staring at his unfinished food, to think. He couldn't understand why mew did such a thing, he also was very much dreading school tomorrow.
Sighing, he then leaned forward to un wrap his arms to then take a hand to the girl to then swirl the food about.
Why mew? Just why? I know you and I were very horny little things when we dated but..... Why would you do something like that?
Gulf honestly couldn't understand the why other then mew just being cruel has he has been since he been dating saku.
Eating his meal, he then got up to place it in the sink to then wash, cleaning his hands, he then turned to go to the living room, to lay to the couch on his side, he reached for the remote to the table to then turn the TV on, to then place the remote back, to then sink his head to the couch to move his legs up to place his hands inbetween them to stare at the tv screen not really seeing anything.
He then turned to his back to look up, gulf then placed his hands behind his head still in deep thought.
Why does this have to be my life? Why can't it be easy? Especially what I have to deal with, with my parents?
Gulf signed.
You know mew, if you just gave me time, I would have been an open book for you, but now, you can go to hell!
Gulf furrowed his brow to then turn to go his other side, to eye the couch.
Tomorrow is school, should I say something? Maybe for mew, it was all to get his frustrations out before him and saku....
Gulf then closed his eyes to take deep breaths.
Don't.... Don't you cry again for that jerk, last night was probably just a cruel prank for him or something, from how he was acting I don't think it ment anything.
Gulf gritted his teeth, that only hurt him all the more.
Shuffeling to his back once more, he placed his hands to his eyes to rub to groan.
"Why did this have to happen! I just want to get over you mew and then you do this! Fucking asshole!"
Gulf signed to then take his hands down to place to his stomach.
What should I do? I have 3 more years of this crap before I can leave for college, will he actually bring it up? I'm sure it was a huge mistake, it was late, dark, weren't in our right minds, well.... He did pin me down but..... There were times I could have gotten out of that and.....
Gulfs eyes widen to then lean up on his elbows to look down, he then furrowed his eye brows.
"You shut the fuck up and go down! He is never ever going to touch you again!"
Gulf then flopped down to then wrap his arms over his eyes to take deep breaths, that didn't help, flashes of what happened went into his mind.
Moving about and quick, gulf sat to shake his head.
It was all probably a very bad and cruel joke, he is probably getting ready to..... With....
Gulfs face fell to furrow his brow softly.
It took us only what, a month to dry hump, were older now, so he has been dating saku for what..... Now 6 months so..... They have to have..... Then why did mew.....
Gulf leaned his head back to look up to sign.
It was nothing but a cruel joke gulf, there is no seriousness to this, you saw how he was acting this morning, this has to be a joke......
Gulf gritted his teeth to then start to fall into depression by that realization.
Rolling his eyes, he then got up to go back to his bedroom, he went to his bag, to then un pack to then go to his back pack to the side of the front door to take it to the living room to place to the side of the table, to then bring out his homework, he needed to do something to distract himself.
He signed.
Just be like mew tomorrow, don't think about this, act like it didn't happen, act like yourself, you need to move on, this all has to have been just a joke, something to get me flustered since I gave that girl a kiss and not mew, I know how he is with games, he always has to win, that's probably what this is, yes he took it to far, but I believe that this is all what it is, just a joke...... There is no way him and saku haven't yet, no fucking way.....
Gulf then gripped the pencil a bit pissed to shake his head.
3 years gulf, just remember that, 3 years then you can get far away from this and him..... Just be yourself tomorrow, don't show him this bothers you..... Just don't!
Darting his eyes, gulf went into his homework to not to think and to try to get over there mistake, not knowing this was going to have a bad consequence attached to it.