the exes

can't believe what happened

Going home in haste, gulf went in to grab at his back pack to then toss it and hard to the ground, to place his back to the door, to breathe heavily, he balled his fists to either side to shake with anger a bit.
"What the fuck was that! Shit mew!"
Looking further down, his eyes widen.
"Ugh!"
Taking his hands to his belt, he un buckled to then take his pants off, there was cum on them and he didn't know from who, grabbing them he turned to go outside to the side of his place in his boxers to then throw them away in the trash, he then looked to his clean boxers to sign in relieve there was nothing there, turning his head he heard a giggle, the neighborhood girl who was 12 was standing right there, he gulped to rush back in embarrassed.
Slamming the door, he then locked it, to place his forehead to it, palms to either side, to shake a bit once more.
"Damn you mew! Damn you! I hate you! I hate you so fucking bad! Why did you have to do that! Why did you have to run away arti when you have someone! This is so not fair!"
Tears started to go down Gulfs face, he then slide down the door to go to his knees, the embarrassment of having the neighborhood girl laughing at him started to settle in has well, he hated to be made fun of.
He then balled his fists to then use one to hit it against the door.
"I hate you mew! I am fucking Disgusted by you and your actions!"
Gulf chocked up by the end.
"I..... Am also so very disgusted with myself for allowing that....."
Gulf then leaned away on his knees to hand his head to then place his hands to his eyes to cry harder.
To the bath that was beside the shower, he laid back to place his hands to the edge to look dejectedly forward.
Gulping, he then looked up to take a deep breathe in.
I.....I.....I think I need to tell saku about what is going on, this is not fair to me, but it is not especially fair to him, mew is technically cheating, I may not like saku since he is news boyfriend but this is not okay.
Gulf took another breathe in to move his head back a bit, his eyes darted.
What mew said echoed in his mind, that gulf wouldn't do that, in essance mew was right, gulf didn't really like to stir up trouble and didn't want to be the cause of said trouble, however this really was not okay.
Gulf started to groan.
"What should I do? I'm so confused..... Okay, let's think I'm a different way, I go to saku, tell him what mew has been doing then what?"
Gulf started to chew at his inner cheek.
"I'll..... Probably be hit since I have not really done anything to stop it, then saku will be depressed and sad and I'll be the cause of that..."
Gulf signed.
"Why am I the cause of that? Mew is the one who is going behind his boyfriends back to do these things. But why? Why is he doing this to me? Could it be jealousy? But why? He has saku?"
Gulf rolled his eyes, he was so muddled and confused.
He then let his hands go into the bath to then lean up to hang his head to look down.
"What.... Should I do? I could tell saku, but what if he didn't believe me? That could happen, then all our friends would gang up on me and then I'd be alone...."
Gulf then brought his legs to his chest, to then wrap his arms about to place his forehead to his arms.
"Fuck! What should I do? I don't want to be alone for the next 3 years! Why do I have to deal with this? It's like I'm the criminal, when it should be mew..... Fine I haven't done much to stop it, however he is the aggressor!"
Gulf took deep breathes trying to calm himself down. Moving his chin to his knee he looked forward.
"I....."
He signed.
"I'm just going to keep my mouth shut, but I am not, going to give mew any more opportunities to be alone with me, today really is the last day he is ever going to touch me! We are not dating, we are barely friends with how he is going about things, he is with saku, probably having...."
Gulfs whole body shuttered to close his eyes, a single lone tear fell from his eye when he imagined saku and me together in a close embrace.
"Damn you mew! I.....I hate you!"
Gulf placed his forehead back to his arms to weep.
To mew, he was still at the school doing his after school activity, to sit at a desk, hand to his chin, to look at his cell.
Why are you not texting me!? What more do I have to do to show you I still....
Placing his phone down, he turned his head a bit to look to saku.
He was behind to smile to wrap his arms about.
Mew signed.
"Mm, welcome back."
Saku nodded.
"Didn't take has long has you too go to the bathroom."
"Told you I had to go number 2, um....I think we are done for today, I'm going to go home."
He brought his hand up to un wrap saku to then move, to grab his back pack to then go towards the door, saku watched with his face that faltered.
"Wait mew, we could go together, maybe you can spend the night."
Mew stopped in the door way to hang his head.
"I need to catch up with my homework, I also need to go home, my parents are starting to worry, maybe next time, take care of yourself."
Mew then went forth to leave, saku then sat down in mews desk to place his arms under his head to place it upon to weep, not having mews attention was hurting him.
Going to his car, mew placed his back pack to the passenger side to sign.
I'm.... Sorry saku....I lied..... I'm fine with my homework and my parents don't really care but I want to be alone, I have no idea why gulf isn't texting or calling me.
Mew signed to then place his key into the ignition.
"Just have to try harder..... Next time....."
Signing more heavily he then went forth trying to really think of how he was going to up the anti.