the exes

just un believable

Going to his house, gulf slammed the back pack down to shake his head eyeing it.
That idiotic, selfish, manipulative....ugh! On top of that he made me spend money on a taxi just to go home!
Groaning, gulf then went to his shower, he felt disturbingly dirty.
Once inside, he laid his back to the wall, to let the warm water wash to his stomach to take a breathe.
This is all just so.....mm....I can't even fathom a rational thought with this.
Signing, he then took his back from the wall, to then stand under the shower head to hang his, to let the warm water hit..
What am I going to do? Should I just transfer schools? I don't firmly believe he actually loves me, didn't even say it when we were dating and now since we have been physical he now admits it? Seems fishy to me, and he also wants me, to get rid of saku and go to him, hell no! He may have been the one to pursue me last time but that does not mean I'm going to him! He lost his chance when he broke up with me just because I wouldn't open up to him about my parents, jeez if he knew the truth behind it he would feel so stupid, ugh.... Like I do now.
Gulf signed to bring his hand to his neck to rub a bit.
He then cleaned himself, to get out to wrap a towel about to go downstairs to start on his dinner.
Sitting, he eyed his food to dig in, to be lost in thought.
Maybe I should transfer to another school, I do like arti, I do like my friends but this mess and drama mew has created because of those moronic plans of his, that never worked, even in the past, I have to deal with it.
No sir, I'm done, no matter how great the sex is, that's really all it is, just a physical act, I want an emotional part also, mew.... He had his chance with me, then he hurt me ever so deeply just because I want ready to tell him the truth about my parents, the truth isn't that bad anyway, I just didn't want the pity.
I've had enough of that for a lifetime.
Gulf then leaned back to poke his left over food with a fork to sign deeply.
What has been happening between us, needs to stop, I am not going to do his dirty work, I am not going to go to saku and break them up, that is all on you mew! You started that relationship, it's up to you too end it for fucks sake! Grew up and grow a pair! Also if you do truly love me and maybe want to get back together then....
Gulf then started to chew at his inner cheek.
Do I.... Even want that? Do I even want to get back into a relationship with mew? What about arti? He is so nice and thoughtful, I really wish to know if he is gay or not.....uhhhh...... Can't just ask that....
Gulf then shook his head.
I'm getting off topic here, what am I going to do about mew and this situation?
Gulf signed to then get up with his dish to then take it to the sink to place in to eye.
What am I going to do? This needs to stop, I am not going to saku, I am not going after mew, rather he was the one to pursue me first or not!
Huffing, he then turned to then go back upstairs to lay to his bed to his back to place a hand under his head to eye the tiny holes in the ceiling.
I'm.... Not going to go to another school, I'm not going to run, what I'm going to do is go after arti a bit more, I need to get over mew, we are not a couple! Has I have thought over and over, he broke my heart once even if I was stupid enough to give him another chance, it'll just happen again, I am not going through that! I have cried enough tears, gulf signed to then turn to his side to eye the wall, his face fell a bit.
In essance, he did miss mew, missed what they had, and everything that had happened confused him to no end, and even though it was one of his plans, the fact still remained he had a boyfriend, rather it was real or not, it was still very much true, also for the fact mew had come out to his parents and made what he had with saku public and not them, started to piss gulf off to no end.
He closed his eyes to furrow his brow in anger.
Opening them, he looked up to his side table to then reach for his phone that started to go off, he then looked to the id, to roll his eyes to place it to his ear.
"What do you want mew?"
Mew laid to his back, still to his bed, to smile wide.
"Miss me yet?"
Gulf signed and hard into the phone.
"No! Now leave me alone."
Mew lightly chuckled to sit up.
"You know you want to come back and sleep with me gulf, you know you don't want to be alone tonight, so.... Come back."
Gulf rolled his eyes.
"I am not going back to your place mew! We are going to school tomorrow!"
"Mm, if you want me to go to school, then you need to get your fine ass back here, I..... Want to snuggle."
Gulf scoffed.
"Snuggle with your boyfriend!"
Gulf then hung up the phone, mew pulled his away to eye.
Getting dressed, mew then turned his head has he heard his houses door bell rang. He then smiled and wide.
Knew he couldn't stay away from me.
He then turned to go, to place his hand to the nob to then turn it to open with his head hung.
"Knew you would change your..."
Mew then looked up to eye, to gulp.
Saku was before him with a warm smile to then step in to wrap his arms about, there eyes darted.
"What are you talking about? Mm, why didn't you answer my calls and why didn't you go to school today? Are you sick?"
Mews face fell a bit. He then closed the door not really knowing what to do next.
Outside, gulf was to the other side of the street after getting out of the taxi with his back pack to have seen everything, he hung his head to then take his phone out to call for another taxi, with tears streaming down his face, reality really set in harshly.