the exes

have no idea what to do now

Laying to his side, gulf took deep breathes, to stare at the wall, chewing at his inner cheek, darting his eyes a bit.
Mew laid to his side, arm wrapped, with his fingers interwined with Gulfs that laid to his stomach, head close to the back of Gulfs, with a wide smile to his face, he took in deep content blissful breathes.
Gulf then flexed his jaw to squeeze his eyes tightly shut.
This is so wrong on so many levels!
Gulping, gulf then opened his eyes, to slightly turn his head to the side to see mew deep in sleep.
He then kept his eyes to his face to then slowly let go of his hand, his smile disappated, to then take a deep breathe.
Gulf then curled his lips inward, to then turn his head back, to then take a hand to the top of the blanket, to then start to pull it off.
Mew immediately opened his eyes to look to gulf, to then pounce, causing him to lay flat to his stomach, to then have his hands to either side of his head, interlocked with mews fingers through his, he looked to one to sign.
"Damnit mew! Get off!" He hissed quietly not to wake up anyone.
Mew laid with his chest to his back, head turned to his back to shuffle it up and down to then shake it.
"No, your staying the night gulf, this is ridiculous, you need to go to sleep."
Gulfs eyes widen to then turn his head to peer his eyes down, to furrow his brow.
"I'm being ridiculous, you have got to be kidding! You force me to stay when I'm only suppose to be here for 20 mintues, then you force me to spend the night, then you say those words, forcing me to have sex with you! I have had it mew! I'm done, now get up so I can go home! You should not be doing this with me, but with your boyfriend, I don't believe for one god damn minute you and him haven't done one thing, you have been dating for almost a year and.... And.... Mew?"
Gulf turned a bit to sign.
"You can't honestly make me believe you fell asleep! Your heavy! Get off!"
Gulf then squirmed about, but was not getting anywhere. He rolled his eyes to then lay his head to the side to flex his jaw.
Damnit! This is not at all okay.
Gulf started to squirm again to no avail, mew when he was asleep was dead weight.
Taking a break, gulf then looked again to mew to eye the top of his head up and down.
"Why.... Why are you like this mew? Why are you doing this to me and saku? Why did you tell me those three words, you have no idea how much I wanted to hear them, you.... Are being so cruel to me.... Why? What did I ever do to you? Is it because I won't open up and tell you where my parents are? You kind of let that type of intimacy go out the window when you broke up with me..... Yes it was for that reason but that just showed me you were not fully committed to our relationship..... And now you have saku, you do all these things with saku and yet your sleeping with me.... Why?"
Mew took a deep breathe but did not wake.
Gulf signed heavily to place his head back down to the side, to then look up to there hands holding intently.
Why..... Are you like this mew.... Why can't you leave me alone? Do you honestly love me? You only started to act this way when we have become really intimate and when I started to try and move on.....
Gulfs eyes widen.
Could he be jealous that I am trying to move on to another? Is that why he is doing this to me? Could it only be because of the sex? Maybe saku was like me and he isn't ready and now mew is doing this since we have so many times.
Gulf made a face to try to take his hands from mews, however has he tried mew tightened his grip.
Gulf signed, to then turn his head back to eye.
"Damnit mew! Are you awake?"
He then felt mew took in a deep breathe to then snore.
Gulf grimace, to then turn his head to place his chin to the bedding to eye there hands holding.
Fuck mew! Why are you doing this? Could it be because of jealousy? Could it be because saku isn't ready? Do you honestly really still have feelings for me? Do you..... Love me?
Gulf closed his eyes to then turn his head to the side once more to then open them to look to the wall.
What am I suppose to do now? I.... Really do like arti, but this keeps happening? I know in part I am too blame, I honestly can't help it when mew gives me those looks, I never could fight against it.....
Gulf gritted his teeth to then peer his eyes down.
Why do you have this un believable hold on me mew? We didn't date for that long, weren't best friends for that long and yet here we are..... Dammit, what am I suppose to do now, this can not keep happening, this is making me feel weird and I am feeling so sorry for saku, which I really don't want to feel since he is dating mew.....ugh..... This is pathetic....
Turning his head a bit down, he heard mew grumble.
"Mm, gulf.... Stop.... Moving.... Trying to sleep.... So.... Tired...."
Gulfs eyes narrowed.
Then he started to thrash and squirm.
"Then....nn.... Get off!"
Mew signed sleepily, to then move them, he laid to his back, to wrap his arms tightly around gulf, to then turn his head to smack his lips a bit.
"Now go to sleep....."
Gulf took a deep breathe has his ear was over his heart, gulfs eyes darted to then slowly close, the beat was lulling him to sleep.
Mew then slowly opened his eyes, to then look down to smile, gulf was taking deep breaths, falling into unconsciousness.
Mew then shuffeled about to then close his eyes to join him, both for the next day didn't really know what to expect but for the moment, right now they embraced the other tightly and heartedly.