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twenty, part two

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5 Years Later

    Standing in your too-cramped, cluttered bedroom that you'd complained about hundreds of times, you realized how much you'd miss it when you left. It had been your home since not long after you graduated, slowly becoming a safe haven in your life. There would always be a piece of you tied to the place, and knowing that along with the fact that you were leaving, it made you sad. You hated being sad. You'd had more than enough of that in your life.

    While there was sadness lingering in you over your impending departure, you couldn't deny that you were excited as well. After living outside of Japan for four years, you were more than ready to return home and see the people you'd been missing. Your brother was at the top of that list, despite how much you two could annoy each other at times. He was still the most important person in your life.

    You remembered how he reacted when you told him about your decision to leave. Explained to him that Tendou had offered to let you live with him in Paris while he began his career, and you wanted to take him up on it. You felt like it was a good opportunity to figure out who you were and what you wanted to do. A new atmosphere not clouded with unpleasant memories would do wonders, you were sure of it. Plus, you'd get to live in Paris, which was incredible in itself.

    Kenma had voiced his concerns, explaining that Paris was far away and you wouldn't have anyone there for you except Tendou. He told you that it would be expensive, and you might realize you didn't want to live there when it was too late. You couldn't help but consider what he said, knowing this was a big decision and you needed to look at all the facts and decide with a clear head. Being hasty about something like this would not do anyone good.

    You ended up explaining to him that you knew how far away Paris was, and it did make you uncomfortable to think about having all that distance between you and your loved ones. But you'd also explained that you needed to be uncomfortable sometimes- pushed out of your comfort zone and forced to adjust to new circumstances. You were too stuck in old habits, too focused on the past. You needed something to show you the way to the future. You also told him that it wasn't permanent, that you were planning on moving back once you felt the time was right.

    Now, five years later, you'd decided it was the right time.

    Living in Paris had been amazing, and you'd grown as a person here more than anywhere else in your life. Being able to live with Tendou, your best friend, and help him with his chocolate shop was an experience you'd cherish forever. All your time here was valuable to you. But you missed home. You missed your family. It was time to go back.

    Which led you to now, trying to pack all of your things in a way that made it possible to take it all on an airplane. You had yet to successfully do that. It was very frustrating, and you were seconds from throwing a ceramic frog you'd bought a couple years ago at the wall. The only thing stopping you was the fact that you knew you'd regret it if you did. Which was very fucking annoying.

    Outside, in the hallway of the little apartment above Tendou's chocolate shop that the two of you shared, you heard your roommate's voice.

    "Wakatoshi-kun! I've been wondering when you'd call again."

    You tensed, hands going stiff against the frog, and forced yourself to take a deep breath. Even though much time had passed, and you were much better now, there was still part of you that hurt when you thought of him. The same part of you that still loved him, would probably always would. You were okay with that, and had accepted it long ago. But you hated the pain that came with it.