Suicide

Chapter 2

EMILY'S POV
I woke up to my neck pain. I remembered that I slept in my bathroom last night because of my fucking psycho father. I need a new life. I waited and waited and waited till finally I herd my door open to my bedroom. I anxiously waited a little more till he opened the bathroom door and saw me sitting on the floor with puffy eyes.

"Emily do you know what you did to deserve" I nodded as he waited for my reply.

" I um skipped school for no reason" that was a lie. he always thought that bullying me was nothing to he should care about.He wouldn't care if I killed myself. He would actually be happy cause he would have the whole house to himself.

"Exactly" he said and walked out of my room. I walked out of the bathroom and laid onto my bed. My father came back in the room to tell me one last thing.

" Just remember your mother committed suicide because of you" he slammed the door after. I wanted to cry, my mom died when I was 9 because she committed suicide. She killed herself supposably because of me but it was all because of my father. He just wants me to feel like I did it. Which I believe him.
She never wanted a child, she was dating my father for a long time and they had sex but they forgot to use safety. I became the mistake in there lives.

*********FLASHBACK*********
"Daddy where is mommy" I said

"Shut up I need to hear the phone" I stood there waiting till he smashed his phone on the table that made me jump.

"Daddy is she okay" I asked concerned for where my mommy was.

"No she is dead all because of you" he pointed at me

"Me what did I do daddy"

" you were born, she never wanted you Emily she never wanted to have kids she thought her life would be ruined if she had one. She killed herself because of you Emily all because of you. I hate you! Emily go to your room and don't come out" he yelled at me I didn't know what was going on. All I knew was that my mom killed herself because of me.

I waddled up to my room like my father said. I got to my room and grabbed my teddy bear and snuggled with it and started to cry. " Teddy I killed my mommy, I am the worst child ever" I started to sob in my pillow. I am 4 years old how can I kill somebody?? I thought to myself.

You killed her because you're alive and your her kid she died because of you all you. My subconscious said to me. I cried even harder till I past out on the floor with my teddy bear in my hands.
********FLASHBACK OVER**********

I would have never thought I was the reason that my mom killed herself. I cried for months, till I stopped when I was ten and took it all out on cutting. I would do it because it helps take away the emotional pain I have and I can focus on having actual pain on my body instead of the thoughts and feelings.

I never liked my body I was to fat to do anything I didn't loose many pounds maybe like 10 and I weigh 110 right now. I'm trying to eat less so I can stop getting called names. I ran out of my room and grabbed my phone.

I ran out of the house. I ran to where I could take my mind off things. I went to the park that I used to go to whenever my dad abused me. I would sneak out and go there to take off all of the ridiculous stuff I had going on in my brain.

It has a really deep pond. If anything someone could drown in it if they didn't know how to swim. When I reached the park I sat near the pond that I loved so much. I grabbed my phone and looked at the time. 10:00 am.

Come on Emily do it! It's your chance to finally go to heaven. To have new parents and a best friend and whole new life. I was still crying from everything go on. I grabbed my phone and clicked video.

"For all of those who want me to die, Well its your lucky day. My life is not perfect like yours. I get bullied by all of you and my father who abuses me. I just wanted a ordinary life. I can't wait to leave this place. bye"

I posted it on Twitter and facebook. I read the first comment on Twitter.

Zaynismyworld commented on your video:
OMG FINALLY THIS BITCH LEAVES, I HATED SEEING HER FUGLY FACE.

MIRACLES18 commented on your video:
EVERYBODY WE nEED TO HAVE A PARTY OMG SHES LEAVING:)))

Harrystyles commented on your video:
LOVE, OMG WHERE ARE YOU?? YOU CANT DO THIS THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT LOVE YOU PLEASE DONT DO IT.

I tweeted harrystyles back saying: I'm in London in grey view park and why do you care it's not like anybody in this fucking world cares about this piece of shit of a human.

Harry styles commented on your vedio:
Stay put don't move okay love please, you're a beautiful girl inside and out please don't do it it will all be okay.

And with that I closed my phone. I am going to count to 10 and then I am going to jump in. 1, then 2, then 3....

HARRY'S POV
We only have a few minutes to get to her I need to save this poor innocent girl who doesn't derserve what she's about to do.

I was already 2 minutes away  from the park. When we showed up there all 5 of us went straight to the pond. There she was I heard her say 6 omg she is going to jump on 10 I ran as fast as I could to get her. I pulled her back and onto the ground.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING I NEED TO DIE ALREADY EVERYONE WANTS ME TOO" I heard her yell. I took my hand and placed over her mouth.

"Listen to me you don't want to waist your life at such a young age. You can have a family, children eve a husband when you get older don't you want that" her eyes started to water. I took my hand off of her mouth and she spoke.

"I just I have the worst life and I thought that If I die I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore I will be up there" she pointed to the sky.

"You will be up there some day but just not now" I told her while pulling her onto her feet. "Where do you live love" I asked her.

"There is no way I can ever go back to my house" she told us

"Why not" Zanyn asked looking at her.

She looked at Zayn" because I have a father that abuses me okay".

"Well we help you get through this" I told her. She nodded. We followed her back to her house by walking her there. She stood on her doorstep. I took her phone and put my number in it. The boys copied me and did the same. "If you need anything text or call us. Even though we are complete strangers. We are still going to be your friend" she nodded. We waved to her and left to go to our car.

EMILY'S POV
They saved me, 5 boys actually saved my life. I have all of there numbers just in case anything happens again. I got a text from harry is what the contact name said.

Hello I'm harry styles and the other 4 boys you meet today were Zayn, Nial, Louis and Liam. And I'm sorry I came so quick and you don't even know me sorry about that but I'm harry styles and I would like to be your friend so wouldn't the others.

"Hey yeah I'm Emily Carter and I'd also like to be friends with you all. I just don't know you guys"

I decided to go to sleep after that. I needed to clean my head with the shit from last night starting from my father to harry and the others.