Suicide

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EMILYS POV
as he is tickling me to death he stops and he rakes my body up and down. I leaned in and kissed him. He grabbed my chin and kissed me back. we kept our lips onnected for a while soon harry licked my bottom lip asking for entrance and I happily obliged. We were doing this till we heard a voice. I turned over to see thats face that hates me but is using me. Zayn

"What's going on here emily" said Zayn harry shot up and sat in front of me

" I swear if you fucking put a finger on her I swear I will beat you to a pulp" harry put his arms around my body behind him. Zayn walked over and sat next to me.

"Let's see who she really wants harry" zayn pressed his lips to my neck and kept my eyes on harry who then put his lips on the other side of my neck. Harry's licking and bitting my skin where Zayn is just licking. Harry swipes his tongue all the way up my neck. I am trying not to moan.

"Baby moan for me" harry swiped his tongue all the way up to the bottom of my ear.

"Zayn stop" I shyly told him. He moved his lips of my skin and walked away. While harry still had his lips connected to my neck. It took 10:00 minutes till finally I got Harry's lips off. I looked at my neck and there was like 15 hickeys spotted all over. Harry looked at me with pleasure. In his eyes he loved it I could see he wanted more from me. Harry stood up and walked to the kitchen before he left he stood behind the couch and whispers something in my ear.

" we can't do this now baby girl" were last words that came from his mouth before he left me stunned and flustered all at once in. I turned around to Zayn standing there he comes and sits next To me. I felt that side of the couch sink. He looked at me with salty eyes and tears all down his cheek. " oh my god Zayn what's wrong" he sniffled and looked at me again.

"I was up all night thinking about how I was rude to you for so long and made you do stuff I'm so sorry emily I just want to be friends with you like really good friends were we hang out all the time and laugh together and hug I'm just really sorry" he sniffles and looks up at me again. I bring him into a hug and rub his back telling him to calm down and that it's alright.

"Hey let's put all that past us we are friends now okay stop stressing over it it's okay I promise" he looks up at me again and I view of his perfect jawline. He sniffles again and smiles.

" ok" was all he said while he passed out in my arms. He was adorable when he sleeps. He was laying on me my whole body crushed under neath his. I slowly slid from under him and grabbed a blanket from the shelf and put on his curled up body. "We're friends now" I whispered into his ear. He mumbled something and I walked back to my room sitting on my bed. I wish I had girlfriends (like friends as girls you get the gist) I wish I had them to talk to. I need girlfriends to help me through things that boys can't. I wish I was in a different school where everyone doesn't want to beat the shit out of me. Only if dreams could come true. I felt a tear escape my eye. More tears kept flowing and flowing. I laid on my bed and shut my eyes tight.

"I wish it would all be over" I whispered

"Baby you wish what would be over" I heard voice coming from the doorway. Every time I see him his beautiful chestnut curls and his wonderful green orbs that you can't stop looking at. I turned my head away from him. He walked closer to me. "What do you want over baby girl" I huffed

"My life harry everything I do is wrong. Nobody likes me for me. I'm either a fat or my ass I ant perfect or my face isn't good anough. I wish that I had friends all my years of school I have been beaten by my dad or kids at school. I have tried multiple times to die it's just people want me to die then they save me I wish I could just drown and everybody would have a easier life" I turned my head towards harry who looked upset with me. He grabbed my hand and looked down at me