AVANTHONY A True Love Story

Chapter 37

ANTHONY POV:
We laid in a comfortable silence, my arms wrapped around hers and her head resting on my chest. I curled the end off her hair with my fingers while the rays of dawn made her brown hair become golden. I kissed her forehead softly and rested my cheek on her head. I laid there thinking of her, like always, even if she was with me or not I always thought about her. I could feel her picking at her nails and her lip move as she bit it, two of her many nervous habits. I didn't ask why she was nervous because she almost never knew why, I just kept comforting her.

We watched an episode of The Office before going downstairs and making breakfast. As usual I cooked everything. I didn't mind, I actually enjoyed it if Avani helped me. I set a tall plastic cup with a protein packed strawberry smoothie in it for Avanis breakfast. After finding out that she was exercising a lot without eating properly I understood why she seemed so weak and sluggish, so I made it my duty to make sure she got the right nutrients. But that was difficult since she had a problem with food, it seemed like she was scared of it almost, which I should have noticed earlier.

"Bebe don't you have an iron deficiency?" I asked, wondering how she hasn't passed out by now.
"Yes."
"If I guess the correct amount of times you've passed out since the day you were grounded through today you have to drink the smoothie." I said. She looked at me keptically for a second then looked at her smoothie and sighed, "Fine."
"Five." I guessed.
"You suck at guessing games. Three." She laughed.
"Bebe just drink it."
"Fine."
"Okay go crazy!" I encouraged as she drank her smoothie.

I could see her eyeing me annoyed as she drank and it made me laugh a little. She put the cup down and I hugged her as a small celebration. When I let go she gaged a little and I got scared thinking I hugged her to tight.
"Sorry, chugging something on an empty stomach doesn't feel good." She explained.
"Ohh okay I thought I hugged you to hard or something." I said. She said giving me a warm smile and brought me my plate that had been sitting by the stove for a few minutes getting cold.

"Are you going to try to actually eat?" I asked. She didn't answer.
"Bebe you aren't going to get better if you don't eat." I reminded her.
"I know. It's not as simple as just telling me to eat." She said a big aggressively.
"Bebe I didn't mean for it-"
"It's fine." She got up and gave me a kiss on the check, "I'ma go take a bath."
"Okay." I said watching her leave.

Did I hurt her? I asked myself. It was a small feeling but it felt wrong knowing I might have hurt her so I went to my room to apologize.
"Avani can I come in?" I knocked on the door. I didn't get a response except for a few weird choking sounds. Worried I flung opened the door and saw her with her head above the toilet and an exhausted look on her face. Immediately I went down to her and held her hair from getting into the toilet water which was a pinkish color with a what seemed like a slushee like consistency.

"Baby are you okay?!" I asked. She laid her arm on the toilet seat then dropped her head on her arm before giving me a groan in response.
"Are you going to throw up agin?"
"No... I don't have anything else to throw up."
"Okay, just close your eyes for a minute." I said before caring for her. First I picked her up and set her on my bed and placed a small trashcan by the bed incase she threw up agin. Her face didn't look dirty but I still wiped it with a baby wipe. Besides that I didn't know what to do except worry and ask her useless questions.

"Ant I'm fine." She said calming me down.
"Bebe you just threw up your whole smoothie and look exhausted, your not fine. What can I do to help?"
"Anthony calm down all I did was throw up a little." She got up and walked back to the bathroom, "See I'm fine."
"Is this normal for you?" I asked because of her overly calm demeanor.
"Kinda." She shrugged.
"Bebe did you make yourself throw up?"
"No, why would I do that?"
"You're lying." I accused.
"Bebe no why would I lie."
"I don't know but I can tell you are."
"Im not!"
"Avani we tell each other everything, just tell me the truth."
"Okay I did!" She blurted out, "But it doesn't matter so just drop it."
"It doesn't matter?! Avani that could become an eating disorder. Fuck I think you already have one!" I said starting to raise my voice.
"I'm fine. I don't have an eating disorder never have never will." She sighed.
"You practically admitted it last night. You described anorexia without actually saying it." I argued.
"Anthony stop!" She yelled, "I'm fine okay just forget about it."
"Your not fine-"
"I said stop! I know somethings wrong with me and I know I have to fix it before it becomes serious but I don't know how and your not helping. So just stop."
"Avani Im so-" I tried apologizing.
"I know your sorry, can you just give me a second alone?" She asked.
"S-sure." I said slowly walking out of the bathroom trying to process everything that just happened.