Waterfalls || Yeonbin

chapter 7: hesitate

Continuing on November 20, 1939

"H-How do you feel about homosexuality?"

I saw the little smirk form on his face, "What about it?"

"W-Well ummm... It's illegal." I whispered, wanting so badly to move closer, but I stayed still.

"Technically if you were to act on it, yes. Gross indecency..." His eyes moved down, reaching his hand out to grab mine which was resting on my lap. He slowly brought it higher, placing it gently on his thigh while continuing to hold it. Yeonjun looked back into my eyes, "I'm a military man. A rank so high in the Royal Navy that he is bound to be loyal to His Majesty and the republic that he serves..." He slowly started moving my hand higher up his thigh as his face moved closer to mine, "And yet, that one law makes me want to be disloyal."

He stopped his hand three quarters of the way up his thigh, feeling his hard muscles underneath the fabric of his trousers. I could smell the alcohol on his breath and managed to give him a little smile as I replied, "I'm a rule-follower as well, and yet, I find myself wanting to break it. It's a silly law really—"

"Soobin..." He whispered, cutting me off from what I was saying, "You're very handsome, you know that?"

"I guess I do now..." I said, keeping the smile on my face as I brought my free hand up, placing it on his cheek. He closed his eyes for a moment, leaning into my touch as I added, "But not as much as you are, I'm afraid." I said, not knowing where the sudden confidence to flirt came from.

Yeonjun lightly chuckled at what I said and moved closer, the gap between us almost nonexistent. Our noses touched as I tilted my head to the side, giving him access to kiss me, and yet, we both hesitated. I got lost in his eyes, not realizing that I was thinking out loud, "Why is this so wrong when it feels so right?" I mumbled, almost inaudible.

Yeonjun smiled, resting his forehead on mine which made the gap between us as close as possible without it being extinct all together. He was staring into my soul, my heart beating so fast that I thought it would jump out of my chest. I've never waited with so much anticipation for anything in my life, and now, that thing is only two centimeters away and I want nothing more than to take it. But we still paused, like we were making sure we both wanted to do this, because once you do, there's no turning back.

"Then maybe that means it is right." Yeonjun whispered back, almost forgetting that I had spoken in the first place. I felt his breath on my lips, staying still for an unbearable few seconds before the gap was closed. It was gentle, his lips softer than I thought they were going to be. I know we're breaking the law right now, but I don't care, and I don't think Yeonjun does either, quite frankly. Especially when he went back in for another kiss, not being as gentle as the first time.

This is usually how it goes for me, passionate kissing leads us to a bedroom, but it was a bit different. Most times, I've known the person for merely a hand full of minutes and it's fun for the night. But with Yeonjun, we've been courting for months, at least as far as I know. I can't remember the last time I actually tried to court someone, if I have at all.

I desperately tried to keep up with his pace as we moved together rhythmically, swiping his tongue across my bottom lip. I opened my mouth a bit as a response and he immediately entered, making it even harder for me to keep up with him. I squeezed his thigh as a moan escaped from the back of my throat, trying to tell him to slow down, but I think he took it as something else since he kissed me harder. I leaned back in my chair from the force, still keeping a hand on his face as it slowly started to slide through his hair, tugging at the ends from the intensity of our kiss.

I pulled away from him, desperate for air, but Yeonjun wasn't done yet. He started kissing down my jaw as I panted, clamping my bottom lip in between my teeth from his soft kisses against my neck. He sat up from the table to get a better angle, and I helped by leaning my head back, exposing my neck more. My eyes drifted to the clock on the wall as he made his way lower. I mentally cursed at the time, knowing we had to get going back to work in a few minutes. And at this rate, we're bound to be in his bedroom soon, "Y-Yeonjun?"