My Light

23

"How is it fair you have the perfect bump and I look like a whale?" Care asked me. I shrugged my shoulders. "You have two in there I have one." "But it's not fair! You can still wear your dresses and look cute. I look like I'm busting at the seams all the while." I rested my hand on my small bump that has only just started showing. "Caroline you're like 30 something weeks, I'm only 16." I tell her. "You're about to pop." "Don't I know it. I'm just glad I got the wedding out the way looking like myself." I laughed. "It wouldn't have been the end of the world." "Do you know how long it took me to find that dress!" "Yes I do because you made me go with you to try every dress on in the country." I laughed.

We continued to walk around the store picking up little bits of the babies. Rick couldn't handle the twins, he said it hurt too much and wanted Care and Stef to raise them as their own, he pretty much disappeared after that... it was a little sudden and crazy but I think he'll be back and if he's not then he wasn't going to be a good dad in the first place. You don't abandon your child. 

I sipped out of my tumbler some of the blood. In small amounts and slowly I can keep it down which I was grateful for because the cravings for it wasn't easy to fight, especially not when I couldn't have bourbon to curb it. Damon and I were still staying with Klaus and Hayley. I felt safer there, especially after Esther had threatened our family. She didn't know about Miracle baby yet and I was planning on keeping it that way for as long as I could. She found out about this baby knowing my connection to Klaus she'd come after it and I am not the type to sit back and let her take whats mine. So living with Klaus I had two scary vampires taking care of me. Plus Freya cloaked the house so she can't use a locator spell to find us. 

"What do you think about these?" Caroline held some ugly pink lace booties. "Absolutely not." We laughed out, I was glad she was only joking about them I've never seen something so revolting in my life. "these are cute." I said looking at the white wrap dress. "You should get it." "I don't even know if it's a girl yet." I tell her putting the dress back on the rack. "You have a feeling." "A feeling isn't the same as knowing and if I brought a dress for our son Damon may kill me." She laughed. "Then I'll get it her then and give it to you at the shower." I rolled my eyes. "How are you this pregnant and still planning parties?" "It's in my blood." "Your blood is other peoples blood." "Shush." She said nudging me pick up the little dress despite my objections. "Of course you'd dress your baby like you... it's so cute." I was known for my summer dresses and skirts. Didn't often wear much else in the spring and summer but the winter that's when 'badass' according to Damon comes out and I dress more 'edgy' if you will. 

We picked up a few essentials and I picked up some cute outfits for the twins as gifts because why not. "When do you and Damon find out?" "Um a few days actually." I beam with happiness. "As long as they're healthy I don't mind what Miracle baby I get." I tell her as we arrive at my car. We dumb the bags in the trunk before climbing in. 

I drive Care to the boarding house before driving to the Manor where Damon was, he was helping out with the assembly of the crib. "Hey baby." I say kissing his cheek as I came up behind him. "How you feeling?" "A whole pint down." I tell him shaking my empty tumbler that I finished before coming up here. She smiled proudly. "Told you, just needed time." I say and he rolls his eyes. Im always right and he can't stand it. 

"How's the crib building going?" I asked Stefan who looked stressed as he sat on the floor surrounded by pieces of wood. "Um fabulous." I laughed. "Let me help." "Nope." "I'm not going to break it Damon." I say kneeling down. "I'm worried about you breaking yourself." I raised my eyebrows. "I put Hope's together I'm sure it's similar." I say going a head and reading instructions. "Here this goes this way and then this goes into this." I say moving the parts around. I picked up the screw driver and began attaching them. 

"So your a DIY queen too?" Hayley questioned coming into the room. "I didn't know you were here." "I let myself in... Damon can I have a word?' I frowned when does Hayley and Damon talk? He left with her and Ignored the weird request and continued to help Stef with the building of the crib. "The house is really starting to look finished." Stefan observed. I nodded. "Once we know if this is a he or a she it'll be finished in no time." I tell him. He smiled. "How are you feeling about it all?" I asked him.

"I don't know. I never thought I'd have children you know... And now I have two on the way it's kind of freaky." I smiled. "You'll be a good dad." "I don't even know what a good dad is." "None of us do... we're just kind of winging it." I laugh. "Seriously Bella what if I'm like my dad." "Then I'll beat your ass." I tell him and he smiled. "You're not going to be like your dad Stef... You're going to be a good dad, because you're going to be everything your father wasn't to you." I assured him. "Are you not scared?" "Terrified." I say laughing. "Completely and utterly Terrified. But I've wanted this my whole life and to have it with your brother... it's special." I admit. "I feel better knowing you're scared too." "Besides we'll all help each other, it's a learning experience." "Our whole lives have been learning experiences, when do we stop learning?" "When you're children are 21." "Really." "No, you learn to develop, change and better yourself. We learn even in death." "What did you learn in death?" He asked. "That I wanted to live." I replied simply. "I think I learnt that I was a monster." "No, you're not a monster... you were hurt and you had to hold it all in, all those years..." I explained. 

"Bella get up we're leaving." "What?" I asked Damon confused. "All of us leaving. You get Care to Klaus' we're going." He helped me up. "What's happening?" "Elle, not the time to play this game please just listen." "She's here isn't she?" I asked. Hayley nodded slowly. "We need to get Bonnie." "Theres no time." "She's going to go for Bonnie Damon. You have to! I'll go. I'll go with Hayley just please go get Bonnie." I begged him not arguing I just wanted my friend safe. "I'm not leaving you." "Please Dee, it's Bon. You can't leave her. I'll be safe I'll be with Hayley and Klaus." He debated in his head for a second before nodding. 

I tossed him my car keys after giving him a lift here this morning he didn't have a car and we all left quickly. "What she finds us?" "She won't." "But." "She won't as long as were at the house we're safe." She assured. I got out the car and ran inside into Klaus' arms. "You're safe. It's okay." He assured me. "Elena's in there." I still hold onto him. He re-wrapped his arms around me holding me tight to him. "You're safe." He whispered to me like he did when I first turned. He assured me every second. I trusted him straight away, I don't know what it was about him but theres just something... "Bex is on her way too, so don't worry okay, we're all here." I nodded and pulled away. He scanned my face I was sure it was reading fear. "Wheres that Husband of yours?" "Getting Bonnie." "Where is she?" "At her family home, she was packing a few things up ready for the house sale." I tell him. "He needs to hurry." That didn't settle my nerves. Bex walked through and Klaus held her along with me. "Go through to the pallor, everyones in there." He encouraged. 

I sat bouncing my leg up and down everyone was here but Damon and Bonnie. I get it he had to drive into town and back to the outskirts. But I felt like I could have travelled the world in the time it had taken him. "Finally." Stefan said standing up. My eyes darted across the room. He was  there. I got up and rushed into his arms. "It's okay." He told me. "Wheres bonnie?" I asked looking around him. 

"Let's go upstairs." "No, where is she?" "Bella." "Damon, please." "Esther already got to her... she was... she was dead when I got there." He struggled out. I felt rage serge through my entire body. "did you give her blood?" "She was dead Elle, my blood wouldn't have done anything." "Did you at least try!" "Of course." 

Our friends were crying having heard the news. Bonnie was my first friend here. She had stuck by my side through all the drama. She was a good friend. And we did most things together.r I should have been with her helping her pack today. I should have been protecting her. "Elle?" "Don't" I say holding a hand on my bump before walking upstairs. 

"Give her a minute." I hear Klaus say before I slammed my door shut. "This isn't over!" I say to myself. She lit a match and I was the gasoline, she took my uncle from me, she took my best friend from me. She tried to take my life and my families. It's on!