When I wake up I see, you with me /b.e

Part 42

Billie's pov:

I came home 5 days ago. Finally. I missed my home. I got to see my dog Pepper and 3 days ago, I Drew and Zoe met and got Taco Bell together. We had so much fun. I missed them a lot. Yesterday I was at Finneas' place and we worked a little bit on a song I started writing when we were on tour. I'll be home for a month because I need a break from touring. My leg still hurts like hell from that show and my mom called someone to help me do exercises for my leg. I hope it gets a bit better before I go on an Europe tour. I keep breaking my shit. Ugh, why can't I just live without constantly spraining my ankles? 

Mia and I... To be honest I don't know what's happening. The last time I spoke to her was when we came back when she had a panic attack because I don't even know why. She didn't tell me. I knew she wasn't doing okay. I kept asking her if she wanted me to come over but said no every time. I hate that she's trying to hide the way she really feels from me. It makes me feel like she doesn't trust me. I texted her every day since and she didn't respond to not even one message. She didn't even open them. She's isolating from me again. Why is she refusing to speak about the way she feels? It's important. I was thinking of coming to her place to see her but then I didn't. I texted Emma if they talked or if she has seen her and she said she saw her the next day after she came home and that she seemed fine. She also responded to her texts. Why is she distancing from me? I'm over here worrying about what's happening to her and she refuses to talk to me. I was thinking about going to her place today. I was texting Drew about it and she said I should so we can talk. I can't let her lose herself again. I decided to text her again.

Billie: i'm coming over idc watchu say be there in a few

I waited for a little if she's going to answer. Of course, she won't. I sigh and go to the kitchen.

"Billie want anything to eat?" my mom asks

"No thanks I'm good" I answer and walk past her

"Billie" she calls me

"Billie come back" she calls again

"What?" I turn around

"Come here"

"Ugh what mom?" I walk towards her

She opens her arms trying to hug me. I wanted to turn around but I didn't wanna be mean she's my mom. I hug her back. She kisses my forehead.

"What's happening Billie? Is everything okay?"

"Mhm" I answer 

"Are you sure" she pulls away and holds me by my shoulders

"Yep"

"Is Mia okay?"

"I think so... I was going to go to her place right now"

"Oh okay well have fun"

"I will bye"

"Bye I love you! drive safely!" my mom yells behind me

I dingle my keys in my hand and get in my car. I sigh and turn on my phone to see if she texted back. Nope. I take a moment to think if I should really go. I put my keys in and turn them and start driving. There's no going back. I'll stop by Taco Bell and bring her something to eat. I put on some music. Not long after it started raining. Driving in rain is the best. I finally came to Taco Bell. I was basically starving because I haven't eaten anything today. I texted Mia again what she wanted from Taco Bell even tho she won't even respond. I order 2 bean burritos for myself and I decided to take a quesadilla for Mia. I think I and Mia went to Taco Bell two times and she always had the same as I did. I don't even know if she likes quesadilla. Fuck it I ordered it anyway. I pay for the order and drove towards Mia's place. 

I finally pull up to their driveway and wait there for a while. I took a bite out of my burrito because I was so fucking hungry. I place my burrito back in the bag and went out of the car. I ring the doorbell hoping she'll answer. I waited there impatiently and kept looking back for any paparazzi. I hope there isn't any. I heard keys unlocking the door. Finally. The door opens and a woman taller than me stood there. Uh what the fuck?

"Hi? Who are you?" the woman asked

"Uhm" who the fuck is thaatttt

"I'm Mia's friend-"

"Mia's not home right now sorry"

"Oh okay um..."

"Yeah bye" she closed the door in front of my face.

I stood there for a while. Was that her mom? What is happening? Who was that? I unlock my phone and start walking back to my car. I sit in my car and close the door and call Mia. Please answer please answer please answer. It rang but she didn't pick up. Fuck. Where is she?

I start my car to turn and drive back home. As I turned I saw Mia and Emma walking and talking. I drove past them slowly but she didn't notice me. I think Emma did. My phone vibrates. I look at my phone. Emma texted me.

Emma: were you just at Mia's house?

I ignore it and drive back. I stop at a gas station. Stupid idea because people can notice me but okay. I grab my phone and text, Emma.

Billie: yeah she hasn't been respondin n i decided to come and see her i even ordered taco bell 

Emma: i talked to her about it and she said she's gonna respond when she comes home

Emma: I knew it was you i can recognize your car from miles away LMAO

Billie: did mia see me?

Emma: no i don't think so

Billie: i went to her door n rang and this tall woman opened the door and said she isn't home and shut the door in front of my fucking face like wtf who is that do you know?

Emma: oh shit

Billie: is that her mom?

Emma: yeah...

Billie: wait fr? what the fuck is the bitch doing here? isn't she in another country or sum

Emma: she came back

Billie: holy fuck. y didn't mia say anythin?

Emma: I dunno

Billie: also I have quesadilla from taco bell bc i ordered it for mia ion like this shit what do i do with the food?

Emma: omg thass so sweet mia loves quesadillas 

I wish she was home so i could give her that quesadilla. and a kiss. I miss her. She'd be happy if I gave her that shit. now idk what to do with it. 

Billie: that's why i got it... anyway igtg now cuz i needa go home

Emma: okay tell me if she texts you back!

Billie: i will 

I put my phone down and drive back home. I wanted to call Mia. I wanted to hold her. Kiss her. Just be with her. Make her smile and laugh. Ugh this is so hard. Dating her is so hard. I'm picking up pieces of her and trying to put them together but she keeps falling apart. Every time she falls apart again she distances herself from me. Did her mom cause that panic attack? What happened that day?

A/N

I'm so in love with blonde Billie aahhhh. She's so prettyyyy. Love you guys take care.