When I wake up I see, you with me /b.e

Part 44

Mia's pov:
"Have you gone nuts?!"

"WHAT?" i snap

"You really think I'm gonna let this happen? No, you're going to finish school and-"

"Mom I'm not in school anymore!"

"You dropped out or what?"

"No, they expelled me"

"Mia" she scoffs "what happened to you? You think life is all about having fun and not giving a shit about anything?"

I stayed quiet. She has never been like this to me before. Ever since she came back... she is not the same as she was when I was 15. She used to be sweet and she did everything to make me happy now she's over here yelling at me. It's been 3 weeks since I came home and the tour is in a week. I don't know if I wanna go. Billie probably doesn't want me on tour anymore after what I did to her. We haven't spoken since.

"Life is about education Mia. You need to study to get somewhere. What are you gonna do in life huh? Travel around the world with some famous popstar? Are you out of your mind?"

"Yeah, why not?"

"Mia you're 18 and-"

"Yes I'm independent so I think i can do whatever I want with my life"

"It doesn't work like that! Are you gonna get money from traveling with someone is that gonna give you a job? No, so you are gonna stay home and finish education and then we'll talk about going around the world. Are you sure you can 100% u can trust that girl? She can use you in the end-"

"Mom just shut up you don't know shit-"

"You are not gonna speak to your mother like this"

"Yeah whatever"

I go upstairs. I'm so done with her shit. Why is she like this? She literally treats me like fucking shit man. I'm independent and I know what I'm doing with life.  I wish my dad was here. She isn't even acting like my mom anymore. She is a whole different person since she came back. She is literally the boss in this house and I'm under her control. I can't do anything anymore. I can't go out with Emma or Daniel. I need to be inside all the time. The last time I saw Emma was either a few days ago or a week ago I don't remember. I was telling her what I did to Billie. She yelled at me for doing that. But the thing is that I didn't feel bad for some reason. And I don't even miss her right now. It's so weird. I guess I still love her.. or do I? I don't know if I still love her. Shit. Of course, I do I couldn't just lose feelings... why am I questioning if I still love her the fuck? She is my girlfriend.. it doesn't feel like it, maybe because we haven't seen each other in a while. I don't know.
I miss my sister. I decided to call her.

"Hello?" she answers

"Hi Olivia"

"Hi Mia is everything okay?" she asks

"I miss you can you come home? Mom's a bit annoying"

"Isn't she annoying all the time?" she snorts

"Yeah she is.. please can you come?" I beg her

"Of course I will"

"Thank you. See you soon"

"Byee" she ends the call

I sigh and charge my phone. I sit against the bed and stare into a wall. What the fuck am I doing with my life man. I'm not answering calls or messages from my girlfriend who is literally Billie Eilish. And I don't know if I still love her. Are we still together? Do I want to be with her still? I don't even know. Should I call her? I need to tell her that I'm not going on tour with her eventually. Maybe she doesn't even want me there. I'm such an asshole. I'm acting like a 10 year old. i grab my phone and unlock it. Emma texted me.