Billie's pov:
"Shit why did i do that? Why did i kiss her? She doesn't even like me. Fuck what did i do? I hate myself" i sobbed into the phone
"Billie it's going to be okay. I'm sure she was okay with it if she kissed you back" Zoe replied
"Yea but then she said she should go" i said
"Maybe she got nervous. Bil everything is going to be okay i promise you" Zoe replied "Look it's your first time with a girl and probably hers too" Zoe tried to calm me down "maybe you should just dm her if you and her can talk and just tell her how you feel" Zoe smiled
"I feel like she won't reply or maybe she doesn't wanna talk to me. I don't know. We haven't talked or ft in 2 weeks" i wipe my tears
"Calm down bil everything is going to be okay. Dm her and tell her you want to talk" Zoe said
"But what if she hates me now omg Zoe why did i kiss her" i started crying again
"Billie do what i said. Dm her. I need to go now Adam is taking me to a special restaurant. Bye Billie i love you" she waved and ended the call.
I lay down on the bed and tears just ran down my face. I missed her voice i missed her face i missed her. I didn't want to lose her. What do i do now? I don't want to dm Mia cuz i feel like she's going to ignore me. I just want to apologize. I miss her so much. I miss our hanging i miss our facetimes i miss everything. I never felt like this about anyone. Mia is just so special. I just want her to text me. I just want things to go back on normal. I really feel like i fucked up our friendship. Mia means so much to me. I grab my ukulele and start playing some random melodies. I remember when i used to play her on the ukulele and she would just listen to me. I start sobbing again.
Mia's pov:
I'm such an idiot. Why am I distancing from her? I've been laying in my bed the whole day for the past few weeks. Only now i realize what she makes me feel when I'm around her. I had feelings for her but kept ignoring them. I'm so stupid. I still haven't told anyone about this but Emma. I was crying because i thought i made Billie think i hate her but i actually don't. She said she knew i probably had an attraction to girls because i never showed any interest in any guy. Ever. I don't even know bro. I was thinking about texting Billie but I don't know if i should. I just felt weird. I missed her tho. Our hanging and all. I missed her doggy pepper. I love how we would go on walks with Pepper sometimes.
I unlocked my phone and went on instagram. There were people tagging me into the posts. It was a paparazzi pic of us. Shit. Do i dm Billie about them? I was to big of a pussy to dm her. I just put my phone down but it kept beeping. I turned it off completely. I just layed in my bed and thought about Billie. A tear ran down my face. I stood up, wiped the tear and went to my desk. I took out a piece of paper and started drawing.
After a while I hear a doorbell. Fuck is it Billie? I became nervous. I opened the door.
"Oh god you're alive" Emma hugged me
"Wha- why wouldn't i be?" I asked confused
"Girl." She pulls away "I've been calling u for 30 minutes! Dude i was so worried" she came inside and i closed the door.
"Why it's not like i'd do something bad.." i look at her.
She looked at me really worried
"How are you" she asked me while we were going upstairs
"I'm fine" i reply
"You sure?"
"Yeah why?" I sit on the bed
"Just checking on you. How are you and Billie? Have you talked to her yet?" She looks at me
I just look down. I missed her. I missed her smile, her laugh, her face i missed everything about her. I wanted to text her and tell her how i feel and apologize for runing out of their house like a little pussy.
"I don't even know dude and I can't get myself to text her"
She looked at me sadly.
"Anyway I've been talking to Liah"
"Who the fuck is that?" She looked at me confused.
"Oh that girl that drove us home from the party she goes to our school" i said
"So because you and Billie aren't texting right now you are trying to move on?"
"No wtf we are just talking" tbh she was a little bit right. When i was texting Liah i tried to keep Billie out of my thoughts. It actually worked sometimes. Liah was just nice.
"Girl you should be so grateful to have a girl like BILLIE EILISH to like u" she said
"Stfu you don't know that she likes me" I scoffed
"She wouldn't kiss you if she didn't like u tho.." she winked at me
I just looked away. Is there a chance she likes me?
"...And i know you like her too" she started hitting my shoulder "admit it. You like her it's obvious Mia c'mon" she continued hitting my shoulder
"Omg Emma stop!" I tried to push her hands away
"Admit it"
"Whatt?"
"You like her"
"No.."
"Miaaaaa" she punched me playfully in the arm. "Admit it."
"I don't."
"Stop the cap"
"I'm not capping"
"Admit it" she looked me in the face and started hitting me playfully again.
"Stop Emma!"
"Not until u admit it" she smirked at me
"OKAY YES I LIKE HER" this is stupid but i think i also liked Liah. It's been so long since me and Billie texted i mean I didn't forget about Billie i just moved on a little bit. But part of me still has giant feelings for Billie
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