"No?" He asked shock. Who in the world would reject a person you chases and like so much? "You said you like me?"
I clenched my jaw, "Yes, I like you. I like you so much that it makes me crazy. But, don't take my feelings lightly. Don't crack up a joke just because you know I like you." How can he utter that easily? As much as I want him to be mine but still I can't take that for granted. No matter how tiny my chance is, I want to slowly break of his walls. Until his willing to open up, but I don't think this chance his giving is good. "Are you serious? Or you just want take advantage because I like you?"
His eyes widen, I can't fathom the emotions his showing but saw the glint of hurt in his orbs. "Why would you say that?"
But, I'm too caught up with mine. The tightening of my insides are unbearable, just the other day he doesn't want me. Why now? I mean what's with the sudden change of heart? "I get it that you want to get rid of me but don't you think you've gone too far?"
No one answered, a deafening silence covered the car. Honking of cars and chirping of crickets are the only sound resonated. I closed my eyes, did I over reacted? Did I go too far? Damn. I don't know what to think.
After the deafening silence, I heard a dry laugh, following a hiccup. "H-how can y-you say that?" He stuttered, I clenched my jaw. I didn't expect that it would be this painful seeing him trying to suppress his sobs. Now, I regret saying that. I should've agreed with him, instead of rejecting that idea. I didn't know that seeing him cry triples the pain I'm suffering.
He darted his dark brown orbs glimmered with threatening tears. "Do you think I'm that person who likes to take advantage of people?"
I tighten my hold onto the wheels, why did I said that? I must be crazy! I lowered my head embarrassed with all the words I uttered. "No..."
Nine cracked up a dry laugh, wiping the tears that rolled his cheeks. I hurt him. I want to wipe his tears away, but ironically I was the one who made him cry. Just how f*ck my life is. "I just want to be free and choose the person I want."
"I don't want to hold back anymore. It's too stuffy in the closet. I want to go out and live the life I want." He stated painfully. Why I didn't think about his worries? It's so immature of me to think that, when his here trying to open the closet that his been hiding for his life. Why I didn't take note of that? I did what I want without caring that his never been out in the closet before.
Before I knew it I became the person I hate.
I lifted my head and meet his dark brown orbs, long eyelashes flickering in the night sky and soft plum lips quivering, "For once I want to make decisions for myself without worrying too much. Is that wrong?"
His voice is calm, I can feel this quivering lips but he delivered quite well without stuttering a single word. Maybe because he thought about this over and over again? Yet, I misunderstood him?
"I'm so immature..." I stated quietly, I said I like him but I didn't take notice of all his worries, the uncomfortable feeling he felt whenever I show up. The only thing I can say is, "I'm sorry... I know, apology is the most annoying word you'll hear when someone made a mistake but that's all I can say. I'm sorry that I wasn't keen enough to notice the uncomfortable feeling you've must have been felt."
His eyes became round, "Why are you saying sorry? It's not that you have mistaken, coz you're right. Feelings shouldn't taken lightly of. I guess, I should..."
"Wait... Call me thick skin or whatever you want, but can I really be yours?" I asked carefully, his round eyes became rounder.
After a second he put on a motionless face, darting his dark brown orbs on my hazel one. "You've rejected me already."
