"Are you hungry?" Chen asked as soon as we entered his condo. I bit my lower lip as my body develop the awkwardness.
Damn. Is this so sudden? What do I do? Should I try to distance myself a little? I glanced at him trying to straighten my thoughts. This is so awkward.
Whatever, I will do what I want to do. "Can I get a glass of water?"
I bit my lower lip, that's not what I'm trying to say. He gladly obliged walking inside the kitchen towards the refrigerator. I followed him silently, like a lost puppy.
He's like 'go big or nothing' man. Minutes ago his like a walking grenade, like any second he'll explode. Now his silent, like it's a sin to even utter a single word.
I feel like the world is spinning but I'm not sleepy. Not until we made up. Dang it. Why the heck am I feeling like this?
Damn. Do I love him that much? My lips protruded, why do I feel like I'm wooing him instead of him wooing me? He's the one who made a mistake! I was the one who was lied why am I chasing him?
My thoughts entangled when i realize something. He's a married man! Why didn't I remember that fact? Am I a homewrecker now?
No, Chen is not like that. What about his son?
I gasped out loud when he stopped from what's his doing and turn his body towards me. I bit my lower lip, I can see his piercing stare but I'm afraid to look away.
My heart started to race, I bit my lower lip hard. In that small way I can divert my attention and not focus on his stare. I winced a little when I tasted blood.
"Nine!" Chen shouted calling my name.
With wide eye, I look at him surprised. I was about to bit my lower lip when he rushed towards my direction and released my lower lip from my teeth to stop me from biting it. "You're hurting yourself..."
He traced his lean fingers on my face. Water formed from the corner of my eyes. Those hazel eyes that's been looking at me with gentle and love ever since. I can't afford to lose him. I can't lose him. What am I to do?
"What about your family?" I asked stopping myself from sobbing.
If I decided to break it off with him, am I able to move on? Can I found a love like this? A love that can accept all of my flaws and incompleteness?
His thick brow arched, "What family?"
"Your son and your wife..." I lowered my head, because I know from the start that if he's going to leave me. I can't find a love like this.
"Come here..." I lifted my head, meeting his hazel orbs. He spread his hands wide, telling me to be in his arms. When he noticed I didn't move an inch he advances and envelope his long arms towards my body. "Do you really think I'm going make you a third party?"
He whispered, I shook my head, "No..."
Chen heave a long sigh, "Do you want to meet my son?" I immediately, take a step back. What did he say? He look at me directly in the eye. "I know I'm pushing my luck. But, I don't want you to think that you're ruining a family."
I stared at him bewildered blinking a few times, trying to process every words that came out of his mouth. Its not that I don't want to meet his son, but it's too soon or is it?
I don't know what to feel.
He reached for my hand and squeeze my hand tightly. "Felicity and I got married out of convenience. Even though my family didn't really forced me to. However, after the accident. I can't make decisions on my own. I'm afraid I'll fail just like how I failed to protect you. So... I just go with the flow, which I badly regretted. Now, there's an innocent child that got entangled with my messy life."
