"What are doing?" My mother asked from the wide open door of my room.
"I'm going to visit Nine."
"Looking like that?"
"What's wrong with my shirt?" I tried to look at my dirty white shirt, there's no stain or anything else on it. She wants me to wear long-sleeved? Even though it's summer?
Her eyes flickered with annoyance, "Not the shirt. I mean, you're not going to visit him with that big dark circle around your eyes aren't you?"
"Why?" I asked back, I mean it's only natural after I stayed up all night. But I feel refresh after sleeping for 3 hours and taking a bathe.
She eyed me sharply before wagging his point finger, "No. Take rest then after that your allowed to visit him."
"Mom, I'm not a child"
She only arched her brow, "Yes you're not, so stop acting like one. You also needs to rest." she stated before closing the door of my room.
I glanced at my phone when it beep for notification. My brows connected seeing the news on the internet spread like a wildfire. Again the rumors of Cassidy Wane and Nine Kornchild revive when Cassidy was spotted visiting Nine on the Hospital. They are about to wrap up the filming but because of the incident it was halted.
The media reported that it was due to exhaustion and fatigue just like the first diagnose of the first attending physician. I can't argue with that because of his individual and group activities plus his drama series its actually a miracle that his body didn't give in sometime ago.
But...
Should we ignore the advice given by his physician? I don't want him to experience that same hell as well but heck, I also want him to remember our moments together.
Am I selfish that way?
Yeah, I must be. I left my son to Chase my happiness. Does that mean that my son isn't enough to fill the gap of longing? I shook my head trying to dismissed that negative thought.
Am I a terrible father?
But all I want is happiness, is that wrong? I snapped back at reality when te ringing of my phone echoed the room. My eyes flew at my phone once again.
"Joss..." I called out the callers ID. I slide the answer button and slump on the edge of my room. "What's up?"
"What's up your face. What happened to the two of you? Why don't want to see you? He would snarl everytime I'll utter your name. Like it's a sin. Please enlighten me." He continuously stated.
I winced a little when his loud voice welcome my ears. He sure nags the best, more than my mother. I heave a long sigh, trying to find words to answer. "He found out."
There was a long unsettling silence covered the conversation. Seconds later, he heave a sigh. "Why's there a problem?"
Is he seriously asking me that? He knows too well my situation. Well, maybe it's not a big deal for him but Nine thinks the opposite. "He might concluded that I made him a third party."
That's the sad truth. I don't want to accept that but given the characteristic of Nine, more or less he thinks that his a home wrecker now but God knows he isn't. He never been be.
"But it's not true." Joss replied.
I scratch my brow, trying to think of any possible solution for this misunderstanding. "Yes, but he already concluded. He doesn't want to hear my story."
"Man... That's fuck up."
Yes, however-- "Yeah, but I can't give up."
"That's the spirit, I'll fully support you with that." He said in loud voice, he paused for a while and lower his voice. "By the way, Nine's gonna be discharge tomorrow morning. I figured, I'll let you know."
