A New Beginning (Jai Brooks Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

Maria's POV

I heard the screaming sirens of the ambulance as it neared the scene. I was kneeling next to Beau, Luke was pacing back and forth behind me, and Jai was standing still, facing away from me. 

I stood up, and walked towards Jai. I did not know thw words that would comfort him, and I doubted that there were any. Jai pressed his hands to his face and let out a sob, a sob that didn't come from the throat, it was a sob that came from the chest.  One that showed that you were aching inside. I could tell he was trying to hold the tears in.

I pulled his hand away from his face and wrapped my arms around him. "I know that there is a stereotype that guys aren't supposed to cry, that it shows weakness. But if you cry now, it doesn't show weakness, it shows love and care. It shows that you have a heart and a soul. Your brother is in trouble, and crying isn't an inappropriate thing to do in this situation. I want you to let it out. I want you to cry because crying makes it easier." I whispered into his ear, still embracing him.  He burried his face into my neck. I felt his body shudder as he let it all out. I rubbed gentle circles into his back. I played with his hair. I tried to think of every comforting gesture I could to help him get through this, and as he was crying, it hit me. It hit me like a brick to the head. This. Is. My. Fault. If I haden't said those things to Beau he wouldn't have run off. He wouldnt have been hit by that car. None of this would have happened. 

My body went numb. I could no longer hold on to Jai. I let myself fall to the ground as Jai tried to hold me up without much success. Beau could die. Beau may die in the next 24 hours and it would be my fault. 

I sobbed, and I cried, and I whimpered, but nothing was helping. Nothing was taking away the pain, the guilt. The ambulance had arrived and the paramedics were gathered around Beau, taking his pulse and saying things to each other. 

Anger flooded through me. Beau could die! Why can't they understand that and take him to the freaking hospital already?! The next couple of minutes seemed like hours as they strapped Beau onto the gourney and put him in the ambulance. With every minute Beaus life was slipping away. I rushed into the back of the car with Jai and Luke. I took Beau's hand, and for the first time in my life, I prayed. 

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(A/N) Sorry for the incredibly short chapter! I havent updated for a long time so I figured I would post at least something short. I will update again in a few weeks. Oh and sorry for the whole Beau getting injured stuff. He won't die though I promise! I love you all and please vote and comment, thank you!!