Hardcore Life (Ph1LzA fanfic)

Silver Linings

Amelia (Slight mention of self harm)

Alicia and I stayed inside of the house for nearly a week without leaving. She had almost immediately quit her job after finding out someone was watching the house, and we'd order food to be delivered. Wilbur and Phil almost always tried to keep contact with us in some kind of way.

"Are you going to stream?" Wilbur asked me.

"I need to." I replied, looking at the phone that sat between me and Alicia. "I just don't feel comfortable doing it."

"Phil's been talking to me about some things."

"Oh yeah? What's that?"

"We're going to try and pool money together to get you and Alicia moved out here."

"Wait, seriously?"

Alicia had a small smile on her face while I immediately snatched my phone off of its charger. It didn't take long for Phil to answer my call.

"What have I done now?" He asked.

"When exactly were you going to tell me about raising money for me and Alicia to move out there?" I growled.

"I see you've been talking to Wilbur." He sighed.

"Phil, you can't just go and make plans about raising money for me and my roommate and not say a damn thing about it to me!"

The frustrated sigh and silence that followed my outburst nearly made me panic. Alicia's smile faded once she noticed that I was shaking slightly.

"Amelia, I'm honestly not in the mood for an argument." Phil muttered.

"I-I didn't...." My mind began to race. "I wasn't trying to....."

"Amy?" Alicia whispered, laying her hand on my knee.

My vision blurred as I started to cry, and I dropped my phone as I tried to hurriedly wipe them away.

"Amelia, what's wrong?" Alicia moved our phones to the side and made me look at her.

"I-I can't....." I shook my head rapidly.

"Use your words. I can't help you if you don't tell me."

The only sound that filled the room was my strangled sobbing as I tried to calm myself, both men on the two calls silent.

"You're going to make yourself sick." Alicia used her thumbs to wipe my tears away as I hiccupped. 

"I did this, didn't I?" Phil sighed.

"She's been having a hard time, Phil. We all could've done it at any time." Wilbur said.

I took a deep breath as I tried to control myself, but I only wanted to cry more as my thoughts returned to Phil and Wilbur trying to raise money.

"I'm not mad." I croaked, reaching for my phone so Phil could hear me. "I appreciate you two trying to help us, but I just..... It doesn't sit well with me to be taking money from others for my own gain."

"It never has, Amelia." Phil said. "This isn't about your own self gain this time. It's about your safety. Do you want to hear about what I had planned?"

"S-Sure."

"I was going to try and do a twenty-four hour stream, or a stream longer than usual, and have different things be done if certain amounts of money was donated. It's not like I was planning on just taking my chat's money without doing something in return."

"I'm going to stream at the same time as him, too." Wilbur added. "It'll at least reach both of our audiences for a higher chance of donations."

"Please don't put your health at risk for us." I sighed. "I appreciate the offer, but I don't want you two destroying your own mental health for us."