Selfless (Sequel to "Left and Right in The Dark") - A Julian Casablancas Fanfic

Chapter 1: It's Time to Grow Up

Sophie's POV:

Would I call my life crazy? Not necessarily so.

Did I have some of the best and most amazing experiences throughout my life? Absolutely.

Right now my life has mellowed down ever so slightly, but that doesn't mean it's boring. I'm in a good place, with a nice, peaceful mind, living a nice and simple lifestyle. Well, for the most part. The only thing that's driving me a little bit crazy is my job.

Working as a financial analyst has its ups and downs. There have only been a few days so far where I have followed the normal 9-to-5 schedule. Most days, I end up working an extra hour, and I come back home at about 6:30 or 7. Even though I consider myself to be a faster worker than the average person, I still get delayed.

Luckily, today is a Saturday. I don't have to work on weekends, and very rarely do I ever hold off on work during the weekdays, since I like to finish everything as quick as I can and keep my weekends free. I decide to do some shopping in my local area.

Greenwich Village, New York is such a wonderful area. I have lived here for a little over two years now. There are a lot of cool people, great buildings and places to go to, and the vibe is really fun. I like where I'm at, not just physically, but also in my life. I'm in a happy place right now, I have good friends and close people that love and support me. In some ways, I almost feel like a new person.

Julian's POV:

Life has changed tremendously for me over the last six years.

My band (with the friends I dearly love) is on a hiatus, I recorded my first ever solo album, I've recently started to maintain a sober lifestyle, and I changed my look a little bit. After I decided to come clean and start living sober, my life has become a lot less stressful and much more positive. It's also been really fun and interesting to venture out and try new stuff. But I'm still missing a companion, a lover in my life, a special girl.

After my breakup with Sophie, I've tried to move on and start new relationships with different girls, but they've all failed. My love for Sophie is just stronger than all of those relationships, I guess. It got stronger after she left. It might seem crazy that I'm still thinking about her all these years, but that's because we had a really good relationship. There wasn't a single disagreement between the two of us. We were just so happy with each other. My life was confusing back then, filled with all sorts of problems inside me.

Before I met her, I would try to just make my problems go away with alcohol, but I knew I was ruining myself. But when she came into my life, she made me so distracted and only focused on her (in a good way). She helped me out and made me feel better. I didn't feel like I had to rely on too much alcohol for a coping mechanism when she was there. But sadly, we were forced to break up due to external circumstances. Even though she left, I still decided to keep her in my mind and use her motivation as a driving factor to get sober.

Ironically, we slowly started to lose contact over time, even though we have each other's numbers. We would text each other 'Happy Birthday' and stuff, but for some reason, we just couldn't converse often. I simply made the conclusion in my mind that it was because both of us have our own lives now. She's busy with hers and I'm busy with mine.

Sometimes I contemplate whether or not I should even hold onto these feelings. I don't even think she feels that kind of love for me anymore. I'm not even sure if I should keep that hope in my mind that I'll see her again someday. I mean, I've kept this silly thought for six years... but maybe that was too long.

Maybe it's time I grow up and let go.

Title Credit: Did My Best - The Voidz