avengers one-shot

empty af

Summary: Peter has been feeling empty since everyone has been busy lately.

// TW: Mental illness, blood, intrusive thoughts, suicidal thoughts. //

Peter woke up that day feeling way too tired than ever. He take a quick look at his phone's notification before heading into the shower and prepare for school.

He step outside his room and spot a new note on the fridge.

Sorry, got an emergency call. I'll see if I can make it home today.

Peter just shrug over the note and he grab a small carton of milk. He gently sit on the couch and let the emptiness surrounds him. He just look over to the ceiling, contemplating his life.

He just wanna be home for once. He wants to feel home so he could finally rest himself from all of the things that is happening in his life.

His phone buzzed, showing a notification from Tony. He just swipe the notifcation and let it stay unread. He doesn't even have the energy to talk to people like he used to. He grab his grey jacket and walk to his school.

"Hey Peter!" Ned greeted him. He just put his head up and look at him with a tired expression. "You alright dude? You look tired."

He just nod slightly, acknowledging Ned that he is doing fine. His guy in the chair just keep on rambling about Star Wars theory that he found on Youtube.

"-and you know? It was pretty, wow!" His mind was totally blown. Peter pretended as if he's been listening but he's just way too tired to listen to Ned. "Dude, I'll see you on recess!" He sprinted to his class and Peter just turn to his left, entering his class.

The class went on and on until Peter didn't realized that its finally recess time. He sit beside Ned and just put his head on the table, resting them. He's been staying up a lot due to the nightmares attacking him.

Ned just keep rambling on the same thing over and over again but he didn't care, which makes him feel like a toxic friend towards Ned and MJ.

After the school ended, he decides that he won't be going on patrol with the situation he's in. He has few cuts and bruises all over his body which make his movements has certains limits.

He just walk over to the Stark Tower like he promised Tony. "Welcome back, Peter. Tony is waiting for you in his lab."

He press the 17th floor which leads to laboratories and research department. Tony and Peter has been doing research about instant suit up under the project Mark 42.

"Hey Peter, how you doing?" Tony said. "Good." Peter answered. Tony look around and he saw Peter putting his hood up and having a really bad posture. He just let it slide, thinking that maybe he had a crappy day at school or whatsoever.

He keeps rambling on about his past projects where he connect between each projects researches. He look over at Peter, feeling slightly doubt.

"Hey, underoos, are you paying attention?" He snap his finger, trying to wake him up. "Peter?" He lean over to see his face but there's still no reaction.

He turn the stool around and saw Peter just looking down, not saying anything. "This is so unlike you. What's happening? Where's the overhype kid who loves to ramble about the churro lady?"

Peter stay unresponsive whenever Tony ask him. He just doesn't have the energy to answer anyone's question. Tony crouch down and he look at Peter in the eyes.

"Peter, are you alright?" That question made Peter broke down and tears start streaming down his face. He just wanted to be alright for the past few weeks as he hasn't been the same since Mysterio's mission.

Tony panicked, not knowing what to do so he just hug him and stroke his back. "I don't know what's happening with you but I'm right here."

He just wanted someone to be there for him when he needs them. Even if it means that they're not listening. He just need a listener so he can lift the burden off of his chest.

He keep everything in a bottle until he couldn't feel a thing anymore. He did thought of ending it but he still thought about his friends, May and Tony. He doesn't want them to blame themselves if he did it.

He just needed someone to tell him that its alright even if he knew that its gonna be a lie. A simple caring sentence that came from a loved one could mean a lot to him as he is going through something.

"Lets go to the penthouse, yeah? The lab is like a little bit hot to be honest."

Peter just stand up and step into the elevator with Tony. "You gotta tell me something, Peter. I really don't know what to do, this isn't my area of expertise."

He just sit down on the couch while Tony get him a water. "Do you wanna talk about it?"

Peter stay silent. He doesn't know how to express his feelings and problems after bottling them up at once. "Its just hard."

Tony stare at the kid in confusion. "What's hard?"

"Being someone who people need. You wanna end it but you know that someone out there needs you. So you had to hold it longer until you forget about it."

Tony put Peter's head on his chest, trying his best to calm him down. "I just can't express anything anymore. Everytime I try to tell someone about my problem, I just couldn't. I feel like it would ruin their day because they already seem happy and I don't have the heart to do that." He cried.

Tony just keep stroking Peter's back. "I can't even sleep without waking up in the middle of night. The nightmares just keep getting worse as I start to bottle up more. I just want to be fine, that's all I'm asking."

Peter keep crying his heart out on Tony's chest, making his shirt wet. "Peter, come on. I care about you. May care about you. MJ and Ned cares about you. You can talk to either one of us, bottling emotions isn't really good."

Tony just got lost at the moment, not knowing how to handle the kid. "If you wanna be fine, you need to open up to us. I can ensure you that the bottle will be filled constant self-reassurements and maybe a little of happiness."

"I'm not the type of person who can open up. I just keep them myself."

Tony pull away from him and look at the kid. "Peter, if you have problems, just tell me. We can figure it out together, you know? When you're not being you, how would you be fine?"

He stayed silent. Tony hug him again making sure that he will be fine. "I'm here for you, and we can figure it out." He smiled.

"Thanks for being there."