avengers one-shot

someone (2)

Summary: Peter went through hard times and he's afraid.

// TW: Depression, suicidal thoughts and action. //

That day, school just went like usual. Ned rambling goes on and on, MJ with her awkward conversation.

Flash? He called him names and just beat him up like usual. But he still feels bad for doing so, he just wanted to fit in with the cool kids.

Liz didn't even glance at him. Peter could just sneakily look at her.

After school, he saw a black Audi RS7 parked outside his school. He just sigh and jog down to the car while putting a smile.

"Hey Hap!"

"Hey kid." Instead of Happy's voice, he heard Tony's. "Oh, Tony. One second." He change into the front seat and Tony look at him. "How's school."

Peter got panicked a bit. He doesn't know what to say. Maybe he could cover it with quiz so it would end quickly.

"Just the same. We got little bit of quiz today but it kinda suck. Teacher always not telling us when the quiz is."

"Well, its school." Tony chuckled. Peter plug in his earphone and play the same songs all over again.

The whole ride was lowkey quiet with Tony rambling over few stuffs. He nod few times and his eyes drop little by little.

"Hey kid, wake up." Tony stroke his hair gently. "I'm guessing today is tiring too?"

Peter just smiled and nodded. They both hop out from the car and step into the elevator. "Come on, spit it out. I know its not just quiz."

Peter look up with his baggy red eyes. "I'm just tired lately. I want to sleep."

"Didn't you slept early last night?"

"Yeah, I did." Peter raise his eyebrows and rub his eyes.

"What kind of tired are we talking about?"

"The sleepy tired, duh." He blinked his eyes, trying to wake his brain up. Tony just shrug it off and they head to Bruce's research lab.

"Dr. Banner." Tony greeted. "Tony, the equation is still confusing." He stare at the board, trying to come up with a solution.

Peter join Bruce in staring at the board. "You forgot the minus. That's all." Peter grab the marker and corrected the whole calculation. "Now that looks like it." They smiled.

"Thanks Peter. We didn't expected a minus over there." Bruce laughed.

Peter swing his backpack across his shoulder and head to the door. "Woah, where do you think you're going?"

"Sleeping." Peter take a step forward but Tony grab his arms. "Stop!" He slapped away Tony's hand, but immediately regretting it. "Shit." He muttered under his breath.

Tony and Bruce wouldn't dare to ask any questions further. "Listen, Tony, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." Peter sighed and he head to Tony but they step backward.

Peter felt disgusted with his actions and just run into the elevator. "Take me to the lobby."

The door opened and he saw Happy in front of him. "Hey ki-"

"No, save it. Don't make me regret more." He past Happy and he run outside, heading to his apartments. He went straight into his bathroom and look into the mirror.

"I'm sure they hate me now." His left hand form a fist and punch the mirror repeatedly. May isn't home yet, so of course he would do it.

He slowly lift his face up, looking at the mirror. "Why can't you hold on?" He cried. He heard footsteps coming but he didn't care.

He's a mess a right now. With his bloody hands on the sink and his hair covering his eyes. "Peter?" Someone called out. "Its me, Nat and Bucky." She said.

He lock the door but Bucky rip it off. "Don't get close, please." He lean against the tub and just hold himself together. "I don't need you."

They look at him with sad eyes, just standing in front of the bathroom. "I went through hard times alone and I wiped my own tears. I cried in front my mirror, begging myself to hold on. I don't need anyone." He put his arms on his knees, hanging his head low.

"You need someone, Peter. Everyone needs someone." Natasha spoke. He knows that its not true. "If everyone needs someone, then where's someone?"

They froze like a statue in front the bathroom. They didn't know what to say. "I am one messed up guy. I don't even know how to fix it. Its past broken."

Natasha slowly approaching him, trying to talk it out with him. "I shut myself down when someone gets close. I got scared when someone's gets close with me."

Peter stand up and try to walk away but Bucky held his arm. He just slap it away and walk out from the room. "Where are you going?" Natasha asked. "Out. Clearing my mind from all these mess. Don't even think of following me." He grab his phone and head out through the window.

That night it rain so hard. Peter pick himself up from the alleyway after being beaten up by some criminal whom he tried to stop.

He walk over to the Stark's Tower and  he saw Happy, sitting on the bench. "Peter... What happened."

He just ignored Happy and head into the elevator. His knuckles are bruised from punching the mirrors.

"Peter, I am detecting few injuries. Should I inform Mr. Stark?"

"Don't, FRI. I'm good." He put his hood up and shove his hands into his jacket's pocket.

He walk into the lab, revealing Tony and Bruce being concerned. "What happened?"

"Got stressed." He sit on the chair and lean his back. "Peter, let me help you, please. I can't afford to lose you." Tony had his tears streaming down his face.

"I'm one messed up guy, Tony. I don't know if I can't be fixed." He huffed. "I'm really sorry about today. I really do." He hung his head low and he cried.

"Its alright, kid. We were just shocked seeing you like that and this." Tony walk towards him and hug him tightly. "Please don't lose yourself, I'm begging you." He cried.

Peter felt desperate to hug him back but he has no choice. "I'm scared to get close to people. Everytime I get close, they left and it makes me think that I've done something horribly wrong. That's why I shut myself down when you get close."

Tony didn't let go of the kid. He just sob into his shoulder. "I'm trying, don't worry." Peter stroke the billionaire's back.

He finally pull away and he put his hands on Peter's cheek, feeling the warm tears mixed with the cold rain.

"Let me help you, please. I can't lose my kid." Tony begged. "Alright. I need someone after all." He smiled. It was his first genuine smile after beating himself for a long time.

"I can be that someone."