Careful [lesbian story]

Chapter Ten

"Wait, wait" I took a breath.
"What's wrong?" She spoke mostly with her eyes. The ones I got lost in.
"This is wrong," I whispered.
"That's why I love it," She smirked and continued our broken kiss.

We were In Mr. Fuchelli's classroom, supposed to be organizing the filing cabinet, but we got.... Distracted.

Mr fuchelli could be back any second which made this pretty damn risky. I don't know how we got into this position, I was on J and she was on K and as she silently said the alphabet I stopped and stared at her for a second. She looked up, leaned in, and "there was nothing I could do." The kiss deepened and this is where we are, Intoxicated. I am.

"We have to stop," I mumbled against her lips.
"You sure about that?" She smirked and grabbed my knee, practically crippling me.
"Oh god" I whispered, it was such an innocent touch but it honestly paralyzed me. "R-ren, we h-have to stop,"
She pulled back, leaving her hand on my knee and pouted. "But I don't want too." She smirked.
"Yeah, well we have to." I grabbed her hand and slid it off my knee, "please."
"Fine," she huffed and on cue, Mr. Fuchelli walked in.
I scooted away from her and looked up to him.

"You girls didn't get much done today." he said, sounding disappointed.
"Oh, I'm sorry," I said and started putting the files back in the cabinet.
"I expect to see you two after every class until it's finished." He said.
"We know." Ren replied.
"I'm glad you do," he replied smugly.
We walked out the door and I was pulling on my jacket when Ren spoke up, "wanna get coffee or something?"
"Yeah, coffee sounds great," I smiled.

We arrived at the coffee shop and ordered,
"Small coffee, 1 cream, 2 sugars."
"Name?" The barista asked, holding a sharpie.
"Taryn," I replied.
She looked over at Ren and looked her up and down, checking her out.
"I'll have a green tea," Ren ordered.
"Sure thing, name?" The barista smiled at Ren.
"Ren," She replied.
"Cute name," the barista gushed.
Ren gave her a half smile and we walked to the other end of the counter.
"Taryn! Ren!"
We grabbed our coffee and tea and sat at a table, I looked down at Ren's cup and it had a phone number next to her name.
I felt my cheeks heat up,
"Jeez," Ren took off the cardboard cover and threw it away, "What a hoe."
We both laughed.
"So Ren, what's your story?" I asked, taking a sip of my bitter coffee.
"My story ?" She asked and smirked that smirk I was quite fond of.
"Yeah," I replied.
"Well, I was born in Washington and my mom died when I was three,"
I interrupted, "oh I'm sorry."
"It's no big deal," she kept going, "I moved to Pennsylvania after that with my dad, and things were alright, when I was in high school I decided to come out, which wasn't such a good idea. I'm not sure why I thought that it would be," she laughed, "my dad wasn't exactly okay with it so we didn't bring it up. I turn 19 in 3 months and I go here which is pretty great." She took a sip of her tea.
I smiled.
"So what's your story, T?" She smiled.
"Uh, I was born in miledgeville. My parents are still together. I was straight my whole life," she interrupted, "was?"
"Shh, my story." I continued, "I breezed through high school with good grades and college recommendations and made my way here. Oh. And my favorite color is white."
"Sounds like a fun life you had there Taryn," she took another sip of tea.
"Had? My life is still fun." I said back.
We both laughed.
"Right, right. Sorry." she smiled, "so.." She went on, and the conversation got awkward. "What have you concluded about your sexuality?"
The question caught me off guard, but i kind of knew it was coming.
"Oh, uh, I, I don't know.." I looked down and pulled my jacket sleeves up.
"That's okay," she said, "it's cool to be confused." I looked up and smiled, and then she leaned in, and kissed me. In front of the whole coffee shop ! "But let me know when you make up your mind." She whispered in my ear.
I blushed and looked away, when I saw the barista staring at us, pissed off. I laughed.
"She looks pretty mad," I whispered to Ren. She smiled and kissed me again, but deeper this time. Still with a lot of passion. I pulled away and playfully scolded her.
"You'll kill me." I said.
"I would never. Id miss you too much," she smiled.
I blushed again and got up to throw away my coffee.

--

"YO" G said all flustered.
"What?" I laughed.
"You and Ren??" She looked bewildered.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I saw you in the coffee shop you whore!" She said jokingly.
"Shut uppppp" I said rolling my eyes.
"No I will not, tell me what's going on with you and her." she pushed.
"Nothing." I said, getting defensive.
"Well obviously something, Taryn. You were making out!" She said.
"No we weren't. It, it was nothing." I started changing into my pajamas.
"Taryn, don't do this again, it's OKAY for christs sake." She said, sounding exasperated.
"I'm not doing anything. She just kissed me, it's not like it hasn't happened before... and she kissed me, I never came on to her. Maybe I told her I was questioning, but I don't want to and I don't really know exactly what I'm doing. Its like I'm a totally different person when I'm with her. But what if that's not who I'm supposed to be?" I didn't realize that there were tears in my eyes and I wiped them away.
"Taryn, I promise you. It is okay. To question, to love her, or anything." She said getting closer to me.
"I do not love her." I said.
"That's okay." She said, giving up, "wanna watch a movie?"
"Y-yeah, sure." I took a breath.

--
*BING*
Camden: Hey
Me: hi
Camden: so, going to a new club tonight, you in?
Me: yeah, sure. Time?
Camden: 7:00 I'll come by your dorm
Me: okay.

"Mmmmmm ugh." I rolled off my bed.
"What?" G asked, brushing her hair.
"I'm going 'clubbing' with Camden tonight." I said getting up.
"Who's Camden?" She asked.
"Oh yeah, I met him a long time ago at a party." I started brushing my teeth.
"Mm" she started on her makeup.
"Wanna come with me to buy an outfit?" I asked.
"I thought you'd never ask." She smiled.
We made it to a boutique and started searching.
"You like this?" I asked holding up a short skirt and a flowy shirt.
"No. The shirt looks like a windbreaker." she said.
I laughed, "okay okay."
"This?" I asked
"Yes."
--
We got back to the dorm and I put on the tribal print shorts and black top.
"You look good" G said, looking me over.
"Thank Ya, thank Ya" I said looking in the mirror.
*knock knock*
I grabbed my purse, and waved to G. I continued to open the door.
"Behave!" She called .
I laughed as I closed the door behind me.

"Hiiii" I said to Camden standing in the hallway.
"Hi, you look great." he smiled.
"Thank ya thank ya" I said and put my arms out to the side. "So where the hell are we going?" I laughed.
"This club down the road." He said taking my arm.
I started humming "we're off to see the wizard" from The Wizard Of Oz, remembering how my dad sang it to me as a kid when we walked arm and arm.
"You're funny," he said looking down to me.
"This is a rare moment, soak it in, because any other time I will be basking in the light of hell." I said.
"Oh wow. Alright." he laughed. "Smoke?" He offered, pulling them out of his pocket.
"Yeah," I said, grabbing the one he held out.
He lit the end and I sucked in, held, and breathed it out.
"You're getting better at it" he said.
"It's nothing but a thing." I laughed.

We arrived at the club and it was crowded. We got to security and showed our ID and walked in. He handed me a drink and I accepted it. They were playing super loud music.
"Wanna dance?" Camden yelled in my ear. I nodded.
We made our way to the dance floor in the center of the club. There was a bar area on one side of the wall with stools, and on the other side of the club were tables for groups of people. The dance floor was crowded like the rest of the place. They played loud electronic music and everyone was jumping and I began to too.

I was intoxicated by the moment, it was great, this was great. I didn't care about all the people or all the sweat, it was freeing. Camden handed me drink after drink and it was fun. I was having fun. For once, I just didn't give a shit.
After several songs I was pretty drunk, and I smelled like vodka.
Camden pulled me over to a table. He was shitfaced as well.
"Taryn! You are sooo fucking cute!" He slurred and yelled.
"Thanks!" I yelled back and started laughing, I was bouncing to the beat of the music and giggling and I couldn't stop.
Until he kissed me. It was sloppy, it was wet, it was everywhere, it was filled with tongue. It was wrong. This didn't feel good. When he slipped his hand under my shirt, I knew what was wrong.

He wasn't Ren.