Careful [lesbian story]

Chapter Nine

"Fuck" I whispered, barely audible.
I tried not to make eye contact with her as I searched the room for empty seats. one in the front and one next to me.
"Fuck" I whispered again, dragging out the word a little longer and a little louder,

"You okay chick?"
I looked over at the boy sitting next to me. I gave him a displeased look as if I was uninterested in his conversation.
"I'm dandy." I replied with a sarcastic smile. He turned, and as I started to turn as well I felt someone sit next to me.
"Oh well hey T" she whispered.
"Hi Ren" I said not very enthusiastically.
I think I set her off when she gave a little bit of a confused look and faced the front of the classroom.

I felt bad for giving her the cold shoulder. But I don't know exactly what to say. my roommate has disappeared, Camden is probably pissed at me, and everyone thinks I'm a lesbian. All because I kissed ren. One kiss, One night. The way she walked toward me, I felt very confident due to all the alcohol in my system, but if she did it today I'd be terrified. The kiss felt good, it was nothing like some of the boys I had kissed in my life, Ren was different, and I needed to find out why. My thought were interrupted by the professor.

"Ah, Ms. Roewn,"
"Fuck" I whispered for the third time in the last hour
"That seems to be your favorite word" the familiar voice from earlier said.
I shot the boy next to me a glare.
"Um, yes?" I said scared shitless, confrontation wasn't my thing.
"Based on what I have displayed, what does K equal?"
I suck at math, my main goal for this class was to not get called on and to just do the assignments to pass.
"Um," It was harder for me to come up with an answer with Ren next to me, and the class waiting for me. I was shaking, and sweating. I have always been this way when teachers call on me and I have no answer.
Ren chuckled a little.
Which made things worse. I was getting very frustrated.
"Well, you see, I have no idea." I said bluntly, thinking maybe I could pass as a little funny.
"Oh, and why is that?" He said.
"I was thinking" I said, getting even more nervous.
"And what about ms. Roewn?"
I slouched in my seat and crossed my arms, my mind going back to what I was actually thinking about. I said under my breath, "not trigonometry"
"Excuse me?" The professor said, indicating for me to speak up. That's when the boy beside me did.
"Oh, she said 'not trigonometry' sir, it's actually the first thing she's said all class other than fuck"
I shot him a death glare, I didn't even know this kid !
Ren laughed out loud.
"Oh you think this is funny do you?"
He said looking at Ren,
"No sir," she replied stifling a laugh.
"I think you do," he told her. "How about you and ms. Roewn stay after class and organize papers for me?"
"Fuck," I said, in my whisper voice.
"Hah. There she goes again!" The boy said laughing,
"Oh and you mr. Land, you can help by writing an essay on why we don't yell out vulgar words in my classroom, to another's expense." mr. Fuchelli turned around after he said it. And 'mr. Land' sunk into his seat and I flashed him a full smile.

After class I stayed in my seat as everyone left but Ren and I. I got up once everyone was gone and walked down the steps to the main floor, Ren following. Mr. Fuschelli was waiting at his desk when we walked up.
"Ah, hello ladies, see that filing cabinet?"
I nodded
"I need the lessons arranged in alphabetical order,"
My eyes widened,
"I'll be back in an hour or so."
And with that he was gone.

The filing cabinet was standard size, four drawers, but completely unorganized.
"Jesus" Ren said when we opened a drawer.
"How could someone even teach a class with everything so disorganized?" I replied.
She laughed, "seriously."
We took all the folders from the first row out and sat on the floor.
"Okay, um, how about I do A, you do B, and I'll do C and back and forth."
She nodded, "sounds like a plan."
I looked through the stack and started pulling A's and alphabetizing them.
Once I was done with A, Ren spoke up.

"So how have you been?"
I thought about the question, besides everyone accusing me of being gay, I was alright.
"I'm fine." I said, not wanting to continue conversation.
She replied "well, that's good."
I nodded and kept working with the C's.
Each time Ren picked up a new folder she had to say the whole alphabet over.
I smiled at that fact.
"What?" She asked, noticing my smile.
"Hmm? Oh nothing" I said kind of laughing.
"Shut up, I can't just remember what letter comes next." She said, jokingly scolding me.
"What Ever you say Ren." I said smiling.

I could feel her still staring at me and I stop working, and looked down. I was too scared to look up into her eyes.
She sighed, "hey, do you want to talk about-"
"No" I answered quickly, I didn't want to talk about the kiss or what happened that night. The kiss keeps messing things up. It made G leave, and Camden frustrated, it made being in the room with her hard, and it made me confused.
"Well I mean, are you gay?" She asked me,
"No" I answered a little too quickly, which I think upset her.
"Great." She sounded defeated.
I stopped working once again, "What?"
"Nothing." She said, irritated.
"Well okay."
She started doing her letters faster and I felt uncomfortable. She still silently said the alphabet.
"I didn't mean to make you mad." I said, regretting what I said earlier.
"You didn't." But I knew I did.
"I'm not sure If I'm gay or not." the words escaped my mouth before my brain knew what I was saying.
She looked up quickly and my eyes widened.
"Really?" She said looking hopeful.
God did she like me or something?
I looked back down at my hands and spoke softly
"Yeah, I guess." This wasn't just news to her, it was news to me too.
"Well that's cool, I mean it's fine to be confused." She said, retaliating. I think she thought her excitement freaked me out. Which it did.
"Yeah."
The rest of the time we were there we sat in silence except for Ren still silently whispering the alphabet.

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When mr. Fuschelli got back it was still pretty silent, and we were only done with the first drawer.
"You girls can stay after class each day and organize until it's done."
"Okay," I said getting up to leave. Ren got up as well and we started to walk when he spoke up.
"Oh and ladies, thank you!"
"Mhmm" I said as I walked out.

"Where are you?" She asked as we started to part ways.
"C, hall 4" I said,
"I'm C, hall 5"
"Oh okay cool."
"Yeah,"
we started walking towards building C together and when we got there we walked inside and to the elevator.
"So um," she said, messing with the ends of her jacket, "do you want to come back to my dorm?"
I thought about it, things could get more awkward and I want to see if G is alive.
So I pressed the 4 button and replied "I can't, sorry. I need to check on my roommate."
I don't think she believed me, but when your roommate is missing for 2 days, you'd want to go home.
"Oh, well okay. I'll see you later then. Can I text you?" She asked.
This girl has got it bad.
"Yeah of course" i got off at my hall and waved bye and made my way to 103.

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"Oh thank god." I said as I opened the door.
"What?" G said back.
"I thought you were dead or something, where the hell have you been?" I said walking towards her.
"I went to my boyfriends, I figured you wanted your space, which by the way I'm sorry. For pressuring you or whatever." She said sitting down.
"Oh no, it's fine." I said sitting next to her.
"Good I'm glad you're not mad. Where have you been, it's getting late." she questioned.
"I had to stay after class with Ren and organize papers" I said with a sigh
"She's in one of your classes?" She asked surprised.
"Yeah I know. I was terrified." I said kinda laughing.
"Why'd you have to stay after."
"I wasn't paying attention and she laughed."
"Oh, well what happened?"
I didn't know if I wanted to tell G that I was questioning my sexuality yet. Am I? I'm just full of surprises today.
"Nothing we didn't talk much."
"Oh"
And with that my phone rang with a text from the infamous Ren.